Triggering (Suicide) - if tomorrow never comes

Enelya · 19-11-2008, 07:42 PM

I can't take it any more.
I'm so tired of my life. I am pathetic to write here. So sorry.
But I'm so tired. I just want to lie down and go to sleep. Forever.
If tomorrow never comes - would they even notice?
My parents are watching TV, not understanding.
I have no-one to turn to.
So why bother.
No-one would miss me. I'd be a relief. For all of us.
I'm sorry to bother you. But I just thought I should tell someone...

xxhappydaysxx · 19-11-2008, 08:52 PM

Hey,
Im sorry youre feeling so bad. Can you talk to a doctor who may be able to offer support?
Suicide effects many people, even people you would not have considered will miss you and be effected.
If you have no one to contact tonight, could you try and distract yourself, by listening to music, drawing, writing playing online games etc? This sometimes helps to take your mind off actually doing anything and gets you through the night.
Alternatively could you try phoning a helpline if you feel the need to talk to someone?
please keep fighting *hugs* xxx

Enelya · 19-11-2008, 10:01 PM

thank you.
I have nobody to call.
I am watching TV and trying to fight.

Cazki · 20-11-2008, 12:10 AM

*Cuddles you gently* Im really sorry that you feel so bad. Are you able to tell us about what it is thats making you feel this way? What is it thats making you want to end your life? Whats happening for you? Your not pathetic. If you ended your life you would be missed and it would not be a relief for us all. Suicide isnt the answer you can get through this. Please dont end your life. Do you have any support?

If you dont have support could you make an appointment at doctors to talk about things? Perhaps you could print off this thread you have made and show that to the doctor? Things will get better. Please reach out for support if you dont reach out for support then no one can help you and i dont want anything to happen to you, your really important to us. Please keep safe, keep talking to us.

Take care all the best Ian

IcarusDrowning · 20-11-2008, 05:04 AM

*Hugs*

I am really sorry things are so very bad at the moment. It would never ever be a relief no matter how strongly your thoughts are telling you this. Reaching out here is a good thing and never a hassle.

Please try and reach out to somebody even the ICE numbers in the phone book?

stay safe

Enelya · 20-11-2008, 05:08 PM

Thank you. I've made it through the night - with your support.
What makes me feel this way is mostly my OCD, my depression and everybody wanting me to do everything ever so perfectly.
I have a new job and am sort of afraid of losing it unless I give more than 100 per cent.

I am on antidepressants and I used to have cognitive behavioural therapy, but I can't afford it anymore. There's no free (good) therapists in Austria.

At work no-one knows, at home no-one cares.

That's doing my head in.

But thank you all so much!

x Lisa