Triggering (Substance Abuse) - out of control...

[Auburn Shadow]

My drinking, it's getting out of control again. I try to not drink, but everytime it's there, I can't help it. I was on antibiotics, and not supposed to drink, but I did. My friends, they don't understand, they told me to go out anyways, when I knew it was a bad idea, and I went out anyways. I can't keep doing this. every time I drink, I cut. Or I want to cut. The other day I almost threw myself off my stairs.

I drink to forget, but, before I forget, I go mental. I cut, I think about suicide, I go through the most major panic attacks, I've tried to drown myself.

I need help. But I honestly don't know where to get it. I can't get to my local AA cause it's an hour's train ride away and I can't afford it. My doctor can't see anything's wrong. I've tried talking about it.

I just. I can't get through the day without a drink anymore. Drinking makes me cut, not drinking makes me cut. I don't know what else to do anymore.

[shandy]

Can you not impress upon your doctor how worried you are about your drinking habits and could he maybe refer you to someone who could talk to you about it, or if possible try another gp in the same practice?

[Auburn Shadow]

I'm going to try, well, no my friends are making me try to go to another GP in the practise and see what they say.
Do you think, and this may be a stupid idea, but here goes anyways, do you think that if I took a friend in and got them to tell the GP how out of control I am from their point of view, that it would help them to realise how bad it is?

I mean, I've got a counsellor and stuff, and I could probably talk to her about stuff, but we're going over abuse at the moment, so it'll be a while.

I... everything seems to be so confusing at the moment.

[shandy]

Im sure your GP will listen to what you have to say with or without a friend, but i would mention your drinking to your counsellor as im sure they would be able to offer some help and support with it, gl with it all. Let us know how you get on.

[Misunderstood.]

I do think that is a good idea to get a friend to stress their concerns about your drinking too, it should reiterate things to the GP. Also, taking a friend should be help for moral support.
Good Luck.