Adult - its hit me....

Last night just went out to a mates house i'm close to and the kids were asleep for 7 YES!!!! so we just started getting even closer kissing cuddling then it got on to sexual stuff yeah after it i had a beaming smile on my face but now i'm like what the hell have i done. He's 30 i'm 17 but it was so magical...

Its brought back so many bad memories and dunno what to do he kinda understands

[Misunderstood.]

I'm glad that he kind of understands, even if it's not totally it's better than to not understand at all.
I'm really sorry to hear that it's brought back such bad memories. If you want to talk about anything then feel free to PM me.
I really hope you are ok.

xxxx

[fragile as glass]

If you are close enough to have a physical relationship what is stopping you from talking to him about your issues around this? You say he kinda understands, maybe its time that he fully understood so that he can be supportive, empathic and aware that how you feel sometimes isnt down to him?

[CrazyChaoticMess]

I agree with whats already been said huni, try talking to him, he can maybe somewhat support you through this ad realise that when yu get down some it's not always because of something his done xx
Alway here if you need a chat xx