Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - It Happened Again

[Defeated_Child]

Once again i am in a mess :(
Last night i felt very frustrated and upset, i thought maybe going for a walk would help clear my mind, help calm me down a bit, be good to get some freshair and have a bit of time to myself :(
All i wanted was to go for a quiet walk. Why couldnt i even have that?

I was walking along just minding my own business, kept my head down, trying to think about different thing, then all of a sudden i felt someone grab me, a hand went over my mouth, i tried and tried to scream :( there was no one about, was a quiet area i was in.

I got taken with them, went to a house near by, i looked at them, was dads friends :( i struggled and struggled but they were to strong for me, im so weak, they keep my mouth covered.

I cant go into much more detail im to scared :(
They beat me up and forced thereselves on me :( *hides*
They told me not to tell no one, or they will kill me :( im so scared...
They chucked me out the door and told me how ugly i was how fat i was :( I hate myself so much..

I cant take much more of this, i cant tell, i want to run away but i dont know were to go, i feel so horrible..

i went for a shower but i still felt all dirty, i scrubed and srubed until i bled but tht dirty feeling is still there....

*hides*
Im sorry :(

What do i do? :(( x

[TimesLikeThese]

First of all, two things; One, I'm very proud of you for having the courage to tell us what happened. Sometimes we get too scared that something bad will happen if we do. And two, I'm very sorry that this happened. I know all you wanted was some quiet time alone, so I'm sorry you didn't get that.

How do you feel about telling the police? It seems a very scary thing to do, but if you tell them, they won't do it again.

How are you feeling at the moment?

Take care of yourself,
Sarah x

[Defeated_Child]

Heya...

I really cant tell the police :( im to scared... theres no way i can do it *runs away*

im sorry..

Right now, i feel a mess, dirty, confused, im in alot of pain..

Guess just feel like its best to give up now :(

*hides*

[TimesLikeThese]

There's no need to hide or run away with me, I won't hurt you!

Would you feel better if someone went with you, someone you trust? I know it's scary but you'll be safer in the long run.

Don't give up, it'll be okay. There's no need to be sorry.

Take care,
Sarah x