Triggering (SI/OD) - Keep me strong

LilAsh · 02-07-2007, 03:00 AM

I havent been on in a while and I apologize for that. I've been doing really well. I'm almost 4 months SI free. It was best for me to take a slight break from RYL for little while...mainly to avoid being triggered. Unfortunately, I find myself..not quite where i was before...but I dunno. Just been having anxiety attacks. My usual way of calming down is no longer acceptable. Meaning i need to stay away from si and od.There have been a lot of people that have been helping me with all of this. You know who you are. A few of those have even saved my life...a few times. I ask you to please help me again. Please keep me strong. Im sorry i have been selfish and havent been here for anyone in a while. I just couldnt. I'm really sorry.

Pomegranate · 02-07-2007, 09:39 PM

Hi, I dont know you but just wanted to reply anyway. Congratulations on being 4months free thats fanastic!! I doubt anyone believes you have to apologise for having to take time away to stop SI or for any reason. I hope you are ok.

Stay strong xx

becks · 02-07-2007, 09:51 PM

Hello. I have no magic answer as I guess no one does but just to say that someone else is thinking about you. Maybe try to get it off your chest by expressing what it is you need and wish you could do, and at the same time think about all the positives of not being where you have been before when you have ODd and SId. This is the hard part where you are no longer using all those comforting techniques but you can get through it because you have already made a huge step. Still, I hear you say how hard it is and I don't know what it is that keeps you strong but at least know people here care. A friend of mine once told me that he only thinks of days as being good days and great days and whilst there are the odd truly awful days I try to stick to that concept.
Anytime you want a rant feel free to get in touch. Keep on going and take care of yourself please.
Becks

bleedingdragon · 02-07-2007, 10:05 PM

Ash,
Hugs you, Its ok for not being around ryl, we understand, ive been in and out myself. Its so good to hear that youve been doing really well
Being 4 months SI free WELL DONE.

Please focus on your achievements ash, and it sounds like your ready to move onto a different way of coping to help you.

I will allways try to do what i can to help you ash,
i will allways try to do what i can to keep you strong to,

your not being selfish, we all have times where we just need support
for ourselves, and cant yet support others, everyone is differnt and will handle things in their own ways.

so right now you need support
hugs you
Dave