Triggering (SI) - waste of time and engry

[midnight fairy]

Hi all

its been a while since i was last on due to having this flu and a cough from hell i have been going to work through this and although iv kept going iv wanted stop but i needed to keep going to work or they would sack me

I now have a week off which i have not had anytime ff from june and im so ill and down im just wasting my week off in bed to try and get better for work i feel so sad i want to cut but i really dont have the engry to do it iv been biting myself i feel so alone and i had so many things planned and that im gonna waste another week, I know in the back of my mind its not my fault i know i did not choose to be sick but i still cant help feeling how i do.

I feel shut off from the world and my friends as it is and now im shut off from everyone im sorry fro moaning its lame

im trying to keep busy and my mind off selfharm but its so hard just have alot going on and then this as well

hugs all midnight :bounce:

[Stellata]

A week resting is not wasting a week off. Not in my book. Rest is vital.
Though, technically, if you're sick, it should be sick leave, not annual leave.
Take good care of yourself...

[Mors Certa]

I have to agree with Stellata, taking time for yourself, resting and healing is not wrong, it is not a waste. Taking care of you should always be a top priority, even when you don't feel that way.

[Merc]

just have to agree with the others, you NEED this time right now.
Try to enjoy it and also it may distract you from thoughts of harm; maybe a fav movie/book/TVshow?
A nice warm bath and then snuggled in a warm jammies and blanket?
A hot cup of tea with honey (or i use syrup cos i hate honmey) to ease your throat and cough?
Altho i like hot toddies better; shot of whatever (rum,rye,etc) , hot water, lemon juice (just a little) and honey or syrup...it eases your throat and makes you sleepy so you can really rest and get rid of this nasty cold.
You NEED this week off hun, your health and feeling better physically will help you feel better mentally too.
*sends chicken soup*
romp