Triggering (Suicide) - crap

[I am a cat]

Mel is off shes my social worker shes off till tuesday I called and they are going to get an on duty worker to talk to me.

I dont want to talk. I just want to overdose. I am sitting here scoffing my fat face and I cant do anything right. everythings wrong. everythings my fault. I feel ill. im fed up and i cant even post a picture of myself on ryl because im "being pro" urgh.

I really want to give up

[I am a cat]

on duty worker called lol she told me to distract myself

[UnanimousAnonymous]

im sorry sammi i dont know what to say. hope you feel a little better soon x

[Misunderstood.]

I think to a certain extent the on call doc is right because if you focus on how bad you feel you'll do something dangerous and it'll be ten times worse.
You know what you're up against, I wish you didn't feel so bad.
Don't OD, please.
xxxxx

[I am a cat]

:(
ok

[SuicidalDreams]

aww ='[ you ok?

[I am a cat]

not really

[Breeze]

Aww Sammi I wish I knew what to say but keeping busy, talking on here. Do you use chat here?
What out of hours support do you have?

[I am a cat]

at the moment I have no out of hours support.
The only thing that is keeping me distracted is my uni assignements that Im doing.

[EyelinerAndCigarettes]

Sammi baby <33
Keep doing your assignmeants <33
Put more things in my package :D :D
I love you so much, I'd be LOST without you...

[sparkle.]

*cuddles* keep going Sammi xxx

[I am a cat]

I really want to cut today has been horrible I cant take no more. i want to cut so much that I blood pours out of me. Imseeing my doctor tomorrow he likes me being cut up.

[I am a cat]

Acohol :)

[EyelinerAndCigarettes]

*holds you close*
he doesnt like it baby,, he was nice last time... please be honest with him..
xxxx

[I am a cat]

today been so orrible thoughnand he does like it hii no he does i can hear him telling me to do it

[falling tears]

Sammi!!!

I think that we are all so concerned about you because on these posts we can all tell that you are a generally lovely person and if there is anything at all that we can do for you please tell us!!!

I am so sorry you are feeling so horrendeous atm... but things can get better.

I have had problems with my on duty worker person who has told me to distract myself... and i know that it is one of the most infuriating things to hear... But you will get through this bad patch... You just need to see your worth and need to really get some good councelling or find somebody to talk to whenever you feel unsafe!!!

Please try not to drink too much alcohol as even though havning it feels good at the time it is a deppresant!!!

i am always here if you wanna chat or PM me !!! I look forward to chatting to you if you want??

Best wishes and prayers
Jen xxx

[Sleepless123]

Sammi i know your really struggling but please try and hang on in there and talk to your doc tomoro.You need to be really honest with him about just how bad things are for you right now sweetie.Please.How are you doing now? *worries about you*. xxx

[jellytot]

sammi babes how you doing now ...
i know we don know each other v well, but .....
you know you can text me if you need to talk , or even if you link up for a bit , i'll find some way to distract you with my crazy ways , you don live too far away from me now ..
you've not seen me when i'm not recovering from flu, i'm amazing .... i recon i could make ya smile , pm me if u need to talk ,

[I am a cat]

Im a low prioirty.

But yet my on duty worker just asked if I needed an ambulance.

But the ED team say I am a low priority.

I got my legs seen to they are all sticthed up now.



I have no emotion

[EyelinerAndCigarettes]

i love you...i know we already talked/bitched about cotswold but i wanted you to know (again) how much of idiots i think they are =]