Flashback *might trig*

[Steel Maiden]

I was forced to go to Central London today....there were loads of police there because of the parades...

I saw the policemen and I had flashbacks....

Flashbacks of being thrown to the ground and jumped on by five policemen....tied up and handcuffed while screaming my head off....seeing things and hearing Voices...convinced that the policemen were going to kill me....then carried out of the police station by the policemen and taken outside, screaming....in front of a shocked public audience....I remember the looks on their faces....and thrown into the back of a police van....still screaming....having a nosebleed in the back of the van....and they did nothing so it just bled everywhere as my hands were handcuffed behind my back...one of the policemen trying to calm me down...separated from the policemen in the van by a plastic window and a grill....being dragged out of the police van at the other end and carried face down screaming my head off into the secure unit...

And then all the shit that happened in the secure unit....

The flashback was so strong I nearly fainted....

Its still playing through my head....

Sorry this is so long and annoying for you....

You don't have to post as this is an annoying thread for you all...

Just had to let it out....

[Miss-Dramatic]

Babe im so sorry you had to go through that. What the policemen did was WRONG they should habe never treated you like that EVER!
xxx

[Steel Maiden]

They were really violent.....my wrists swelled to twice their size because of the handcuffs....although I was resisting like hell.....just bitter at having five policemen practically sitting on me....

I've also had policemen sit on me while I got forcibly injected in A&E on a separate occasion....and on two occasions I've had the police at my house with a police car and an ambulance outside...the neighbours gossiped about it for ages....I couldn't face anyone in my area of the street and still can't.....

Sorry I'm rambling...

But why are policemen so darn rough? Why do they take people on power trips?

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[[pretty on the inside]]

I don't have any useful words at the moment, but that sounds awful for you and I'm sorry the police and hospitl staff have treated you so badly sometimes. Don't be sorry for posting, it's good to get things off your chest =] xxx

[Miss-Dramatic]

I dunno babe :( People shouldt gossip bout things like that and i dont see why they police had to be there and the ambulance surly they could have just had the ambulance there?
That must have been really horrible for you to cope with :( x

[Tig]

That must have been really horrible for you to experience Steel Maiden and to relieve it through a flashback must have been terrible.
You are doing well to overcome it, and your thread isn't annoying at all.
xxx

[Steel Maiden]

Thanks guys....

Apparently they had to use the police van because I was being violent and I kicked one of the policemen in the face so I guess they got pissed off and said "that's it let's chuck her in the police van"...they had an ambulance that followed the police van...guess why...because the paramedics had IM lorazepam and IM haloperidol in case I kicked off in the back of the police van...that's why I eventually stopped screaming at them and just sat in the back and cried...because the police man said "we'll have you sedated if you don't stop"....I was scared the sedatives were in fact cyanide or something....

But there was one really nice policeman called Ben who was really caring and kept telling me everything will be ok...so it wasn't all bad...

Thanks for being so understanding...just needed to get this flashback out onto the screen....

[Miss-Dramatic]

Its okay as long as it helps you its okay xxx I hope it has. Your every brave writing all this down xxx

[pixie*lyssie]

You ARE brave honey like Stayci said *hugs* I had the ambulance and police outside my house too... so you are not alone.
I just wanted to let you know that. ILY,

xx

[Miss-Dramatic]

:( ILY All :)

[Steel Maiden]

I love you all too...

Just remembering the look on the public's faces when I was taken out all bound up in restraints, screaming my head off and kicking...it was so humiliating...

Thanks for the kind words...

I have to go now and pack for real so I will be back later.....was txting people so got delayed...

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[Miss-Dramatic]

Dont worry good luck packing babe xxx

[Steel Maiden]

Thanks...done what I can and will get Mum to help me...

If I see any more policemen I swear I'm going to flip.

[Misunderstood.]

Not annoying at all. Sounds horrific.
Just thought I'd take the opportunity in this thread to wish you the best of luck at the hospital, I know you'll have the net but the admission palava bit, I hope you will be 'ok'.

[Steel Maiden]

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Originally Posted by Easy.does.iT

Not annoying at all. Sounds horrific.
Just thought I'd take the opportunity in this thread to wish you the best of luck at the hospital, I know you'll have the net but the admission palava bit, I hope you will be 'ok'.

The admission bit will be hard but I'll tell my doctor everything when I get there. I know someone who is in Seacole Ward so I'll be able to meet up with her and she'll keep me company.
I remember when the policeman was calling for extra help, he said into his radio "we've got a schizophrenic here" and the way he said it, it sounded degrading.
Thanks, I'm a bit nervous but can't wait to get away from this house.
xx

[dubagirl]

i'm so sorry about all of this, with the flashbacks and how horribly the police have treated you in the past.
And the comment the policeman made into the radio was such a rude and demeaning thing to say for all to hear- completely unnecessary.

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Originally Posted by Steel Maiden

I know someone who is in Seacole Ward so I'll be able to meet up with her and she'll keep me company.

:)
This is good! He he!

Nothing that you've posted has ever been annoying, and this is no exception. I promise.
Take care,
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[Breeze]

I have had bad situs with police I never forget them. I hate seeing them now.

Steel, hope your doing OK. Just remember you be glad to be out of that house and that after hospital there is the chance of possibly having supported accomodation. Something to hold onto that though is :)

[Steel Maiden]

Thanks guys... The flashbacks have eased now as I've talked to my ex (who is now my friend) about it at length by txt.

[pixiedust]

*hugs* sorry you had such a bad time with flashbacks yesterday. It all sounds horrible. I hope your admission goes ok *hugs* xx