Graphic / Triggering - big black hole

[purplestardust2]

Hey, I`m in a really bad place at the moment want to slash my arteries and take loads of pills and scream and shout and kick, I`m in such a mess been taking pills on top of my normal medication, am so impulsive and my counsellour says I```m very chaotic at the moment I will swallow anything I can get my hands on, cut whenever and wherever I can and I don`t care, I don`t care about what it`s doing to me or my family or friends, which makes me a horrible person, I just don`t see a way out of this anymore I can`t keep fighting it anymore and part of me doesn`t want to, I just want to do anything I can to damage myself in any way how sick is that to admit? I just can`t take anymore, and I feel like no-one wants to listen.

[Shenanigans]

I'm so sorry you're stuggling so much at the moment hun *safe hugs* but we're all here to listen if you want to talk.
Do you know what's made you feel this way? Why do you not care anymore hun?
Please keep safe
Xxx

[purplestardust2]

I don`t care anymore because I`m toxic inside I just contaminate eveyone around me and cause them so much pain, my abuser put this evil inside me and I can`t get rid of it so I just want to die, but I`ve not got the guts to kill myself so I`m doing it slowly with pills drink and cutting hoping that something will damage me permanetley. I hate it so much I feel like a whore who deserves to die I want to jump off the nearest bridge and get it over with.

[GrimmFaerieTale]

Sweety, I'm so sorry you feel like this. You are not toxic at all. You are not a whore and you don't deserve to die. Have you told your counsellor how bad you're feeling at the moment? You aren't a horrible person at all **hugs**