Triggering (SI) - Urg

[The Mad Hatter]

so things have gotten so much worse for me. my hearing things is getting worse i hear people screaming and crying. on Saturday my brother got really drunk and got very angry him and my dad were physically fighting and it took two of the party guest(we had a wine tasting) to break it up. and then he went to his room and broke his stuff that really upset me and i keep hearing it over and over again in my head. college well college i am going to be pulled out of according to my mom because i will be on academic probation and will have to get a job because once i am out of college i lose insurance so i need money to pay for it and i don't have any expiernce so fast food here i come i figure the next thing is i will be kicked out so can live on the streets i guess if that happens since i wont have enough money . i have good news i have been 4 weeks cut free and was able to fight urges last night after getting all this news. i just need a hug i guess i dont know what to do

[The Mad Hatter]

bumps i was hoping someone might reply if i bumped it up

[Mors Certa]

I wish that I had words to share, I am sorry that I did not type anything before when I hugged instead, words have been difficult for me lately, please know that I am here and I am listening. I am just lousy at responding.

*HUGS*

[SecretMe]

I'm sorry for not replying before. I was tired, but also I was confused. I'll get to that in a minute.

I feel really sad about the tough times you are having, but am glad to hear your good news of being SI free especially after all you just had to deal with! You should be proud of that accomplishment.

So, what I was having a hard time understanding was why you were not going to be able to go to college just because you were going on acedemic probation. Acedemic probation just means that you are being watched carefully to make sure you are fulfulling all the requrements and then if you don't, you can end up losing and help, programs, etc. But there is no reason to leave yet, so why is your mom saying you have to and have to get a job?

Also, I sincerely hope you don't end up on the streets. You should go to a shelter if you have no friends, family, or anywhere else to stay.

Again, it sounds like things are really bad right now... Yet, you are handling it very well. So, be proud of that and continue to take good care of yourself.