ok, well basically, i have issues with trust and people i dont know, iv been seeing my gp every 2weeks for about 2 months or so and i think i need to start being honest with him. i know ill bottle out of verbally telling him so iv written a note, i was just wanting peoples opinions really...
"ok, so i know i will bottle out of verbally telling you things so i thought id write some stuff down.
i struggle with people i dont know and i have problems with trust and feelings of abandonment. It takes me a while to start to trust people, but i know iv got to start being honest with you.
i wasnt honest with the mental health people i saw a few weeks ago. To start with i told them my last OD was september 2007, that wasnt true, iv OD'd many times since then. My most recent OD was just before i came to see Dr Webster, since then iv taken two very small citalopram ODs. I also told them my last cut was weeks ago which also wasnt true. I didnt tell them anything of what really goes on on my head either.
The citalopram still isnt doing anything. Im constantly battling with myself not to OD on them. So far iv rationalised that Xmg isnt going to kill me and hence ODing on them serves little purpose, but that still doesnt stop the constant battle in my head. But if you increased the citalopram to Xmg that will cause me to be more likely to OD as Xmg has more chance of killing me, especially if im run down.
Im really struggling with my sleep at the moment. Im currently getting little to no sleep and its really starting to affect me.
Alot goes on in my head, but thats all i want to tell you at the moment"
sorry its long...comments or anything would be great. im terrified of giving him the note
thanks to anyone who read it
xxxx
First of all well done for even writing the note I know that must have been hard. I think that this note is a really positive thing and I hope it all goes well with giving this to your doctor. If you find you are still unable to give your doctor the note personally perhaps you would find it easier to post it or email it. Best of luck, let us know how you get on. Take care
Kat xxx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
I wrote a letter to my GP and then gave it to the receptionist a day or so before my appointment and then when I went for the appointment it really helped her understand me better. So if I have difficulty saying things or getting my point accross I write to her. I think writing things down really is a good idea. All therapy session I have start with my weekly diary writings.;
"I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same too so we are not that different you and I.
You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end.
That sounds like a really good idea. Know what you mean about not being able to tell people stuff! I think it's important that your gp knows what's going on (I really should take my own advice!) and writing it down is deffo a good way to tell him.x
thanks for your replies
i have to give it to hoi personally cus i dont like leaving my notes and stuff with people, wierd i know..i thinks its a trust thing again
problem is im getting dead edgey about it already...i dont know if i can give it him, but i know iv got to sorry my heads a bit of a mess to tonight
Its a good letter, please give it to your GP...good luck...
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
gargh!! i dont know if i can give it to him....i know i should...but im scared of what hel think. im scared of letting him into my little world...
i dont know what to do
i dont think my lack of sleep is doing me any favours and is just making giving him this note worse
im scared of giving it to him
theres not like theres anything he can even do..
but if i dont give it him i know hes going to say something thatl trigger my abandonment fears
im really sorry, this is just a big and scary thing for me..
If your having difficulty expressing yourself then give it to him all it can do is gain. I have BPD so I understand about fear of abandonment but the letter will help him to understand you and your feelings.
"I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same too so we are not that different you and I.
You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end.
You have nothing to lose and I'm sure that he will do whatever he can to help you. Please give the letter to him. It will only help you.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
sorry my heads a bit of a mess to tonight
