im becoming a new person

[whathellisabout]

everytime i have some sort of shock the best way of dealing with it is by dreaming of a better me, dreaming of a me that fits perfectly with everyone elses thoughts. so i can effect the next soldier that comes to tackle me.....
my last shock was being backstabbed by the friends i thought loved me. and to add to the flavour i met a young child who is only 4 and seems like he knows what this world has instore for him.

all thats left for me is to completely change my innerself again, but this time i feel fantastic. simply because im getting better. no drink, fatty foods, and look after myself tenfold.

or am i?

[SugarKane]

This is a really dumb and unhelpful reply probably but what you wrote reminded me of part of a song by Suzanne Vega:

But the only soldier now is me
I'm fighting things I cannot see
I think it's called my destiny
That I am changing

Sorry

[whathellisabout]

cool! at least somebody replied. that wasnt dumb at all i love it when people share their opinions

[salviaforme]

it sounds like you are setting yourself goals to improve your life, this article may of interest to you, its all about personal goal setting to achieve your goals and objectives giving you a new direction in life.

here are some other things you may find interesting

Responsibility

Are You A Responsible Person?
Why Being Responsible Is Important In Life
Life Purpose

How To Find Out What To Do In Life
The Importance Of Finding Your Purpose In Life
Self Esteem

How To Improve Low Self Esteem
Why Self Esteem Is Important In Your Life
What Does Self Esteem Do For You?
How Self Esteem Effects Love And Relationships
Why Do People Sabotage Their Lives?
Is It Possible To Have Too Much Self Esteem?
Why You Need High Self Esteem To Be Successful
What Is Your Current Level Of Self Esteem?
What Is Self Esteem Made Up Of?
What Does Self Esteem Look Like?
Why Having Low Self Esteem Can Damage Your Brain
What Is Fake Self Esteem?
Living Consciously

Are You Sleep Walking Through Your Life?
How To Wake Up To Life
Are You Hiding From Your Life?
Do You Prefer Living In Alternate Realities?
Why It Can Be So Hard To Stay Awake In Life
Self Acceptance

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Do You Fully Accept The Person You Are?
Can You Look At Yourself Naked?
Are You Feeling Guilty About Something?
Courage/Fear

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Start Standing Up To Your Fears!
Organize Your Life, Organize Your Fear
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How To Overcome Your Fears With Goals
How To Program Your Mind Not To Fear
How To Learn From And Overcome Rejection
Do You Have A Fear Of Failure?
Do You Have A Fear Of Success?
Integrity

Are You Being Honest With Yourself?
Why Lying To Yourself Will Destroy Your Life
The Law Of Attraction

Become A Master In The Law Of Attraction
How Childhood Effects Adult Life

How Your Childhood Effected Your Adult Life
Look At Your Parents, Then Look At Yourself!
Did Your Parents Love Your The Right Way?
Did Your Parents Destroy Your Childhood Dreams?
Why Do Parents Disrespect Their Children?
Did Your Parents Make You An Invisible Adult?
Why You Should Always Accept Praise!

[Comely]

I saw your voice come in at the end. The little voice that gets to us all. It is so great that you want to make you happier. Focusing on you is a great thing.But remember,that little voice is going to be there. You have to fight through it the best you can. And you might take steps back,but don't let it throw you off.

go you!

[MrsNutkin]

Hugs....your doing great

[Moonlight Princess]

It's really great to hear that you're so positive! Good luck with everything!
Kiran
xx

[svenn]

right on.