Has any here ever felt like they might a ghost or a spirit or a soul wandering the earth? Or that what they are seeing isn't real?
A few weeks ago, I had the scariest experience of my life. I had what I can only described as an episode in which I was fully convinced that I had died and was reliving my last moments. Everything was spinning and repeating itself. Every noise I heard just sounded like static, and voices sounded like jibberish. It was as if everything was being played in reverse. I started to get very scared that I was dead, and I cried because I didn't want death to be like that. Confusing, chaotic, REPETITIVE.
After about 20 minutes (which at the time felt like hours) of laying on the sofa, completely paralyzed, I got up. It all felt like a dream. I'm still not convinced that it wasn't. I started to become extremely paranoid. I felt like I was in a constant state of de ja vu.
Since that night, I haven't felt right. For days after that, I was convinced that I was just a soul wandering the earth, and that everyone around me was just a creation on my mind - imprints of my former life. Even now, I wonder if what I see and experience is truly real. How can I even be sure?
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I've felt that I'm not real a lot of times, and that everyone is a figment of my imagination. That was because I felt/feel so alienated and isolated and alone.
i often get it in my head that everythings a figment of my imagination or other similar thoughts.
sorry im not much use, i just wanted you to know you're not alone
xxxx
I often feel as though I am not real and that tings aren't really happening, or that I'm not actually wherever I am.. If that makes sense. But I don't feel as though I am dead.
I have had episodes where I thought I was dead, and just moving through the world without touching it, and things didn't mean much. It was a worrying experience, possibly caused by stress and depression. I think its called derealisation or depersonalisation or something like that. It's a recognised phenomenon anyway. Hope you feel better from it soon, if it keeps happening so badly maybe see a doctor, psych, etc.? Take care.
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you should probably talk to a doctor, but i can tell you something that might be helpful.
last aug/sep, i had two very severe episodes from a med change where i completely lost grip with reality. i was paranoid for one, felt apart from reality, was easily scared, cried for no reason, and so forth. for several weeks after i felt like that, where i didn't think i was quite there, having hallucinations and just not completely better. but it did go away.
was there anything to trigger the first episode? have you been taking more (or in fact any can do it randomly) alcohol/drugs, especially more than normal? have there been any med changes (dropping meds, changing them, or increasing them)? have you had any major stresses in your life?
any of that can cause an episodes which is not normal for you. so talk to a doctor, but keep in mind it may go away too. it also seems that the paranoia you mention is a theme found in several popular movies. that's not to make your episode less important or real... i know it had to be VERY scary and i am not trying to downplay it. but maybe you could stay away from those types of movies for a while? i don't think that'll cure it, but it might keep it from being set off AGAIN until you get counseling or on meds to help with the psychosis. again, i'm not saying you're just living a movie. i'm saying movies may be having an impact on your psychosis, so while the psychosis won't be fixed by you avoiding movies, it might keep a scary episode from being set off... use your own discretion though. do stuff you don't think will trigger.
I'm really not sure what could have triggered it. Any number of things, really. I have pretty severe panic attacks, but I usually know what they are and they aren't NEARLY as intense. This was just different. I truly believed what was happening, and even now if I think about it too much, I start to question myself. I've also been having flashbacks.
I honestly don't watch a lot of movies, but that's definitely something I'll keep an eye on.
Thanks for your response.
You can learn a lot of things from the flowers,
for especially in the month of June.
There's a wealth of happiness and romance,
Oh, the golden afternoon!
"Has any here ever felt like they might a ghost or a spirit or a soul wandering the earth? Or that what they are seeing isn't real?"
Yes i have belived i was dead before, and that im just floating around and not actually in the real world. I feel like im trapped on this earth as a ghost. And i am often questioning my surroundings. I ask myself is what im seeing real or is it a hallucination?
I understand its very hard not knowing where you really are, and thinking you're disconnected from the "real world".
Are you currently seeing any professionals in the mental health team? If so, it would be a good idea to tell them about this event, as it must have been very traumatic for you.
Take care xx
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