struggling

[gina]

sorry to post

been around a week I guess......want to cut so very much but already feel the guilt of it

I cant really handle this

very alone and very lost

what can I do beside cut it all away

deep apologies, I ve never been much use

[guiltyinnocence]

*hugs*
do you know whats triggered you?
you're not alone, we're all here for you
xxxx

[gina]

to be honest, I dont really get triggered any more....it seems to be a constant battle to not cut.
I dont know what Im meant to do anymore. I keep procrastinating and wasting time.
I jst feel so stupidly lonely and lost

[guiltyinnocence]

i can relate to you
are you getting any professional support or anything?
*hugs* i know that feeling. sorry im not much help, just wanted you to know you're not alone and that i care
xxxx

[gina]

noooo
Im at music college and I dont really want to try and get any help- the idea of this getting out.....well. there arent that many ppl on th pro music circuit, everyone knows each other....I dont want to end up auditioning on front of someone who knows this and will judge me for it....Ive hidden it for my whole 1st year at college, but I just cant seem to manage now

thanks
xx

[xxhappydaysxx]

Could you talk to a tutor in confidence? I have talked to teachers when I was at school and what i was going through didnt get around school.
Its hard to try and manage on your own, often the support of people around you can be a great comfort.
xxxxxx