Triggering (SI/Suicide) - I think i did something wrong

[brokengal]

Im in hospital, well i should be. Im on an involuntary treatment order.So prety much i cant do anything and im no aloud out of the doors. But they openedd the doors and I made a ran for it. I needed some space alone except in those 4 walls. i coulnt take it anymore. So I think i might have the police looking for me at the moment but where i am hey wont find me for sure! But I do intend going back. My pysch dr isnt going to be happy with me.

But anyway Im not well at all. My thoughts are all over the place. Thinking wierd thoughts. i need to alk to someone who isnt a menal health nurse or psych.

me an my friend made a suicide pact to overdose and really die this time. She made a dr appointment so Ive gota somehow get into contact with her. She has the ablet but won do anything without me. The hospital have my phone so there is her number.

I really need to kill myself. Its my only option i have now. Im been trying so har an it seems the harder i try he harder it get. Anyway Im an organ donor. Why waste my perfecly good organs well except my liver(due o the many overdoses)? when someone who needs them and wants to be alive? As Im not.

Someone plese talk to me ASAP

[Namaste]

Wow... it does seem rash to escape, but I'm sure you're psych will understand that you just needed some space.
And killing yourself isn't the answer. Everything happens for a reason, so there is a REASON you're still alive, though you may not see it.
I can tell you've been trying so hard, so hang in there a little while longer and I'm sure you can pull through.

[-Shae-Lynn*]

I'm pretty sure that they won't take any of your organs if you die from an overdose so maybe use that as a reason not to do it. Don't do something so final. I think you should go back to the hospital and tell them what is going on. You could help save your and your friend's life. That is just as noble as giving your organs, and proves how strong you are!!
PM me anytime, okay?