Ill be out of the hospital next friday. It kinda scares me. Ive been home in the weekends, but I just wanna get back every time. It's like I wanna be hosptalized I dont feel like I'll be able to get back to "the real world".
It'll probably go back to being exactly like before i got hospitalized
Sweetie.
I know what you mean. When i was in hospital i felt really safe. No one could hurt me which meant i would be less likely to hurt myself.
Are they offering you any support when you come out so you settle back in okay?
Have you told them how you feel?
Take care.
Amy x
'Cause I'll always remember you the same.
Oh eyes like wild flowers within demons of change ♥
I can relate to this a lot, as I'm sure many people can. Hospital is a safe, very restricted environment so it's natural to be afraid of being discharged and often it's very hard to adapt to the "real" world but you will and you can.
Have you discussed your fears about being discharged with your care team? It's worth discussing it with them because nobody is going to think any less of you, just perhaps put things in place to help the transition. I know you've said that you're having weekend leave, how has that gone? Even though you have wanted to go back to the unit, how have you managed to cope with not going back? Your care team will probably have helped a lot of people who have been afraid of going home so I hope you are able to tell them.
When you are first discharged it will be scary and hard but over the weeks you do start to adjust. Maybe when you are feeling positive about being discharged, write down a list of all the positive things that come from not being in hospital, like being able to go to bed at a time that suits you or having more freedom, more chance of a social life. When you are feeling sad about the loss of the unit, remember the positive things that comes with being discharged.
I have every faith that you will be happy at some point that you were discharged,
How long have you been in? Could you perhaps consider a slower transfer back to outside?
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that's exactly how I felt, my discharge was slightly less expected I cried all the hour long journey home ! lol but it's not an environment you want to get used to.. it will be hard but be strong good luck
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I'm not short, I'm space efficient
I can understand this
Everytime I leave hospital I'm terrified that I won't be able to cope at home and its weird being in an enviroment where you can do pretty much whatever you want to yourself
Other people have suggested this but I think talking to the staff there about your fears might help
Leaving hospital is hard but I have every faith in you that you will get through the hard stages and make it through ok
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
That's a sh*t response. How are you now? Are you out?
I know it can feel horribly lonely being back at home, but I've been in hospital for four months in one go before and I know that going home is hard, but I can say that the feeling goes away with time.
Time is the best healer.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I'll be home at friday, so no, im not home yet:P
But I can already picture it in my head...I wonder what they'd do if I refuse to leave? carry me out? :P
What about becoming a day patient for a couple of weeks?
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Is there no day hospital things there or on another site?
I want to kiss the bottom of the ocean before I burst through its surface into the sunlight, otherwise I will always be wondering about what was left unseen at the bottom
i'm tired of chasing my dreams. i'm just gonna ask where they're going, and hook up with them later.
Why don't you explain that you need the transition from hospital to home to be as smooth as possible? Otherwise it will cause you distress.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I wanted to let you know that I understand that it's hard. It seems that, for me, it's bordering on the impossible having just left my adolescent unit where I was for 8 months straight.
Though I know it is possible because I've seen other people do it and manage alright, and they tend to say that it gets easier over time.
I suppose it just takes time to get used to being at home again, just as it took time to get used to being in a hospital environment.
Do you have any kind of phone number to call for both in and out-of-hours support? Like the crisis line? Because they can be very useful, and also a comfort to know that somebody is on the end of the phone to help.
Could you ask the ward if you'd be allowed to phone them over the weekend after you're discharged, as that might help? That's what they did for me and it did help to know I could still call, even though I'd never see the staff again.
Best of luck with everything, I know you can do it :)
Make sure to talk to a nurse/doctor more about it though, they could suggest something that you'll find really useful.
xxxx
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
How was your last day? I hope you're alright.
Tonight will probably be very difficult, but I just wanted to say that you can get through it.
I'd recommend having an early night- that's what I did on my first night having left the ward, and it means that you can just have a break from thinking! Even if you cry yourself to sleep like I did, and wake up looking like you were in a fist fight the night before...!
Did the ward put anything in place to offer you some additional support in the end?
Take care of yourself,
xxxx
I dont feel like I'll be able to get back to "the real world".
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