this is quite embarassing for me, as i'm sure you will appreciate, but i have problems concentrating and dealing with anxiety that causes nervous tics unless i relieve myself about three times a day. preferrably, i'd rather not have to do it because it's disgusting, but so is taking a dump - doesn't mean i stop doing that too!
ideally i'd have a girlfriend to deal with sexual tension etc. but that aint gonna happen for a little while yet, because i am hardly a pilar of strength right now and i am pretty isolated inside my head, and don't have any acquaintances that like me who are around my age. the people i can confide in are all a lot older than me, and i think thats because of my personality - i act a bit grown up for my age and i'm in tune with things that turn young people off.... but I cannot repress who i am for very long.
i like hard work and deep thought, even reading, to forget my problems - escapism. but just now this inner emotional turmoil and yurning is distracting me and making me forget things.
what can i do? the way things are going i think i might lose my job, and that will make getting a partner and the recovery process even harder. thanks.
*hugs* is all I can offer...but sometimes it helps!! xxx
"People have abused you lots in the past? Why do you then abuse yourself more?" - Quote
Sometimes I feel like I'm alone, Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong, Sometimes I feel nothing at all, Sometimes I feel vulnerable, Sometimes I feel a little fragile
Honestly, people deal with things differently, and at least you don't do something that's harmful to your body. No one has to know about it and if that helps, then do what you have to do.
I mean, it's not quite the same, but I have really bad anxiety and I do yoga to help it. And everyone thinks it's kin of funny, because I'm not at all flexible or atheletic, and it is difficult for me to execute any poses gracefully, but it helps. My friends think it's weird, but I think it works miracles for me.
For my mom, cleaning is like her cure all.
Everybody has something that helps them.
Personally, I don't think it's bad of you or anything.
I agree with Namaste actually!
If you don't feel that it's right, then I'm sure you can find something else, pick up a new hobby maybe get a pet? doesnt have to be something big, maybe a hamster, or a guinea pig?
little things help, and although it doesnt seem like it at the moment, things will get better, and you wll find someone, just be confident, and yourself!
x
