hey,
Sorry I know there are probably a million threads on this already but I'm new here so please bear with me. I had a bit of a flip out last week..alcohol induced so my own fault but I had been having some problems lately following the death of my sister last year. In short my SI had increased and I had started to feel more suicidal.
Anyway after seeing my dr my meds got changed. I'd been on 40mgs of Citalopram for nearly two years but about a month ago dropped it to twently in order to feel less numb. Then I was told it was either back up to 40 or try something else. I went with the something else - which was mirtazapine 15mgs to start with. I was reticent because I'd read about weight gain and this was an issues to me as I've struggled with an eating disorder for over a decade but thought I would try. Anyway I took my first one last night and I've felf like a zombie all day

Not jut a bit sleepy but really foggy and distant, and i've spent so much time in bed. I am really not liking sleeping so much...I've had insomnia for years and oddly enough it's familiar and at least I know where I stand.
My question is does this go away or is this how it is? i know it has a seditive effect but eventually I have to go back to work and have a life. I'm so worried. At the moment I'm signed off for 2 weeks and gp wants me to stay on 15 for those weeks but I still want to function. It's an effort to talk even. Plus I'm concerned about the weight gain and increased appetite. I want to try and see if it helps but if not my only option left is effexor and having been on them many years ago I can remember how diffcult it was to get off them. So really I'm asking for opinions or experience? Sorry it's a bit rambled, foggy head and all

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P xxx