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i have got the golden touch -fact - no sympathy-
it appears that i have the golden touch that no matter how hard i try, i cannot plesae. i canot get finances right, i cant control my mind, my eating or spending.
wjen life seems to be going good (from the outside) i touch it and poof,
golden sinking sand that feels like there is no way out.
been here before, but it is getting hard to comeback form it.
i want no control anymore. he loves me. my kids adore me.
i am a liar, stealer, and life taker.
i suck fun out of everything. i drain the family of joy and finances
someone take this magic touch.
i want life to go right.
i dont want to end up like me.
i want to change
i want chnge
i need help staraigtening this mess up, but i am in fear i will lose it all.
i am scared
rain
my god i am a rambling idiot that cant focus on anything but my situation
bam...
i am sorry for offending those i did, for doing wrong that night, for involving you in my life, for upsetting thosse i have, for not being there when i dshould have.
please forgive me, please,
rain
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