I was Looking for Bipolar info..not quite what I expecting..Slightly humorous...i am so down now

Rain Keeper · 21-10-2008, 05:41 PM

I was thinking/knowing i was getting depressed/suicidal more plus haveing mood swing from one hour to the next... looking up stuff on Bipolar..cause of the swings i have...even feel like i am high almost everday around the same time... i dont what i am...maybe just cursed...

Anyway found this test and burst into tears!
I dont know if it is good or bad...but i am seriously *sad*crying now.

Bipolar / Manic Test Questions

* The sun is too loud.
* Trees begin to chase you.
* You can see individual air molecules vibrating.
* You begin to explore the possibility of setting up an I.V. drip solution of espresso.
* You wonder if brewing is really a necessary step for the consumption of coffee.
* You can hear mimes.
* You can achieve a "Runner's High" by sitting up.
* You say the same sentence over and over again, not realizing that you have said it before.
* You believe that if you think hard enough, you can fly.
* Things become "Very Clear."
* You ask the drive-through attendant if you can get your order to go.
* You say the same sentence over and over again, not realizing that you have said it before.
* You begin speaking in a language that only you and Chandeliers can understand.
* The less sense matter and matter is more than sense.
* You keep yelling "STOP TOUCHING ME!!!!" even though you are the only one in the room.
* You say the same sentence over and over again, not realizing that you have said it before.
* Your heart beats in 7/8 time.
* You and Reality file for divorce.
* You say the same sentence over and over again, not realizing that you have said it before.
* You can skip without a rope.
* It appears that people are speaking to you in binary code.
* You say the same sentence over and over again, not realizing that you have said it before.
* You can travel without moving.
* Antacid tablets become your sole source of nutrition.
* You discover the aesthetic beauty of office supplies.
* You have an irresistible urge to bite the noses of the people you are talking to.
* You say the same sentence over and over again, not realizing that you have said it before.
* Losing your mind was okay, but when the voices in your head quieted, it was like losing your best friend.

Now, I know this isnt the real test, but some of these really happen. What to do, what to do??? I am seriously serious that i might have a problem. I have lost my contact for support. and just 30 min ago i felt "ok" but now i cant stop crying! its not laughter tears. *would love for life to end now*

Rain

Ragdoll · 21-10-2008, 07:52 PM

Aaww hon, I can relate to some of those too!

Don't try and self-diagnose though, it's always a dangerous thing to do. Why have you lost your support?

irkeninvader · 21-10-2008, 09:27 PM

Was your contact for support a friend or a professional? Is there any way you could see someone else? *hugs*

Casper_Fading · 21-10-2008, 09:38 PM

oh sweets. I can relate to some too!!! *pets and cuddles*

Who was your support? And like ragdoll said do NOT self diagnose. It just gets you in a world of trouble. Take the list to your doctor and go thi is a joke but i can relate to some! Help me! *cuddles you tightly*

Rain Keeper · 22-10-2008, 06:56 AM

not really self diagnosing but just reading up on information which should already be known for my situation.

i hadnt cut in weeks... the release has calmed me tonight.. i dont feel so tempted to do other things.( i must say i tried distractions in arcade for like uhhhh ALMOST 4 HOURS???? I did get in the top 20 on a game go me!

its 1:00am...HE is not home yet... i had better get in bed.. i have to be up in oh dear 4 1/2 hours!!!!

good night good night good night!

rainy

oh duh ... the support was the counselor lady that left me back in may...no one to talk too with out being found...maybe just maybe though.. i might have her cell....wanders off to look...

Stellata · 22-10-2008, 09:05 AM

Did you find her number?

I have a few of those, and I have depression and PTSD, not bipolar.

((gentle hug))

Casper_Fading · 22-10-2008, 11:11 AM

llove you darlin

Misunderstood. · 22-10-2008, 04:55 PM

That list is so me (I'm dx bipolar though so it's not a surprise).
But more to the point, how are things for you now?
(many hugs)
Please hang in there, it's difficult, very difficult but it's not as bad as it sometimes feels. I can really empathise with your mood changes.

Catherine x-x-x-x

Trucktastic · 24-10-2008, 05:16 PM

I can relate to some of those too! Especially the IV espresso, that I love stationary, and reality and me divorced quite a while ago and are living decent separate lives!

But on another note - how are you doing today? Did you find the phone number you were looking for?

Take care

Loz