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Eight Months!
As of today (21st October 2008) it has been exactly eight months since my last self harm. I am so proud of myself words could not do this feeling justice. I am filled with pride due to this achievement, which I've done not only for friends and family, but for myself. It's a strange feeling to do something this big for yourself, and succeed (so far *fingers crossed*), when you despise yourself. But I managed it. There have definately been some very close calls, and the urge has been so intense on some occassions it has practically driven me to madness. But I believe I can do this. And I believe anyone else out there who's trying to give up self harm can do it too. I thought it was hopeless at first, and it's been such a battle, but believe me everybody: The pride and gratification you get from the success of having an official "landmark" (week, month, year, etc) overshadows any release or relief of self harm I have ever experienced, and it is so overpowering, it makes it all worth while. I promise you.
I just want to say good luck to anybody who is battling self harm in recovery, I wish you all the best. Thanks for reading, if you did. *Jumps and clicks heels together*.
Robyn
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