I never know whether to put a trigger warning on these kind of things...
I got on the bus on Friday to go to Tescos. There were a bunch of secondary school kids on there. Not many, so it was ok. But as soon as I got on they talked about a Katherine, and how she's such a dog. And so forth.
My original name is Katherine.
They couldn't have known my name.
So, how?
They probably weren't talking about me, but coincidence, much?
Yesterday I'd not long got in from work, and was sitting in the front room with one of my flatmates and her son. There was this huge flash of pink light showing through the glass at the top of the front door. And the bang, I dissociated out the bang.
Some teenager had thrown a firework into our porch...
Just 2 minutes after I'd walked in the door.
It really shook me up.
I am trying not to think "What if Katrina's right, and someone really is after me?" Because it is just coincidence, these two events, isn't it. Isn't it?
Im sorry this happened and its understanable you feel shaken up by it. It seems like a coincidence, its still horrible but things happen and sometimes more than one at a time and it throws you off for a bit. I have also thought in the past something was out to get me because of a lot of bad stuff happens. But things happen by coincidence so please try and put it down to that.
I hope your day has improved
xxx
"If only everyone could know and live with their inner craziness…people would be fairer and happier." Paulo Coelho
i think that sometimes, we link things together, because of our past, because of our thoughts/feelings.
I know ive done it before all these things had happened and i linked them together, but everyone else i spoke to linked them in a completely different way. It turned out that all the things ad happened could be easily explained through other things.
I'm really sorry that happened to you with the firework, it would have shaken anyone up!
I agree with what Spoons said, it's easy to give incidents meanings they don't have. For instance a good few weeks ago I was out for a walk and a guy grabbed hold of me. It'd have shaken anyone up, but because of certain fears I have, I assumed he wasn't human and was something supernatural come to harm me. But after talking to my support worker she was reminding me that anyone would have been scared by what had happened. But that it wasn't personal. It's easy to feel you are being victimised when you really fear it. But then if you try rationalise it, Katherine is a fairly common name, especially among teenagers, I must know 5 or 6 of them at least, the chances of them actually talking about you when you didn't know them are really really slim. Similarly with the firework, it's coming up to bonfire night, a lot of people can be idiots with fireworks and find it funny to throw them around. It probably wasn't personal. Would it make you feel safer if you could report the firework incident to your local beat officers?
I think it's quite easy to think everything is about yourself. There's always a link somewhere in my opinion. For example in my lecture yesterday he used an example of a high BMI and looked at me. Straight away I thought that he was directing the comment at me. Which of course is daft. He looked at everyone in turn, and BMI is the example he's done in these lectures for years! So it was just the way I interpreted things.
Ok I rambled a bit there. But I guess what I'm trying to say is that you only thought they were talking about you, and thought the firework was meant for you. When in reality, they could have been talking about any Katherine in the world, and the firework accidentally went through your window.
I can understand why you thought that especially if you're worried about someone coming after you, but I think they're more coincidence hun.
