Should i go to the doctors???

[*~Katie]

Hey..well. I'm a newbie to the site.

I've not cut for over a year, but since then i constantly feel down, i worry about anything and everything and the only words i seem to be able to say is "im a failure" it makes me really tired, and i constantly have migraines. I have a developing fear of looking in the mirror, or i'll want to smash it because i hate how i look so much. I've rebelled on all my family, and my boyfriend. I burst out crying when they say my attitude is horrible, but im so defensive around everyone because i believe everyone is out to get me.
I have suicidal thoughts alot, because i feel like i cant cope with all the stress much longer. Me and my boyfriend constantly argue because I'm so mean and spiteful around him.
But then the next day I'll be totally happy, laughing and joking with my friends and dressing up and feeling great again. But any slight bad thing happens and my mood plummets.
I just dont know what to do.

please help!

[Wellingtons]

Do you have a counsellor or someone who you can access?

Congrats on not cutting, thats quite some feat *hugs* how about trying to make it to two years, and then you can feel proud you made it through a bad patch even? Off to les doctors :)

[x-dying-inside-x]

if you dont have anyone like a counsellor i think its a good idea to pop down and see the GP hunny.
xx