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hard getting out
Im having trouble being social. In the week im in the hospital, but in the weekends I come home. Last week an old friend of mine wanted us to go to the cinema. I havent hung out with him the last year(because he moved and stuff) and I really didnt feel like going, so i made up something. But he just asked again now, and I said yes because im scared ill loose him. I mean I dont have that many people asking me to hang out...
We used to have so much fun, but im so scared hangin out with him. He doesnt know that im hospitalized...We're not close anymore, so I dont feel like telling it.
Ive also tried to go to this youth club I used to go to before twice in a row, but I ended up leaving after 5 minuts both of the times. And then all the bad thoughts i had in advanced got confirmed and I felt even worse than before, and regretted even trying.
Im confused. I want people to keep in touch and stuff, but no one does, and when someone finally does, i back off? Confusing.
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