Well yesterday it was my first shift in another tesco store because ours is shut for a refit. Well first of all I had to drive to it and this was my first real time in the car by myself since I passed my driving test on tuesday
. This would have been fine if it had been a simple car park but it was full of one way systems which were confusing. So I finally park and then I become paranoid on whether it looks ok or not so I sit in the care for about 10 mins before I finally get the courage to leave the car.
I then walk over to the shop entrance not knowin where anything is or where to go and basically there was noone to show me either. I did walk into the shop but I didnt want to go anywhere cos I didnt want to look like a total **** so I went back outside and just stood there. I just became so petrified I couldnt even walk towards the door anymore. I kept standing there, I was due to start at quarter to five. Finally it came to 5pm and I was becomin totally freaked out cos now I knew I was late and it was all my fault. Finally I managed to make my way over to Fran, my team leader. I did tell her I was petrified but she just shoved me straight onto a checkout. Sure, she did send someone over to show me how to work the belts cos they were completely different to the ones we had in our shop. But after two mins she just dissappeared leaving me to fend for myself.
That would have been fine but the belt kept stopping and I had no idea how to fix it and I didnt even know where the red light was to ask for help. So I started cryin when noone was lookin but always appeared normal whenever the customers did look at me. Every customer was looking at me like I was stupid and shouldnt be there cos I was useless. Well when it came to my break I had no idea where to go to get to the canteen but thankfully someone came over to show me but as soon as I sat down in the canteen she disappeared to sit elsewhere leavin me by myself for 15 mins and then I had to find my way back by myself, I was sooo scared that I would end up in the wrong place. But thankfully I made it back only to be out back on a checkout again but this time it wasnt so bacd untill people started asking about offers that didnt come off on the reciept and where they should go. I just simply couldnt answer cos I knew there was no customer service desk so i didnt have a clue wot to say or do.
I have never felt so annoyed/scared/alone in all my life.
My manager promised me there would be someone there to show me around but now i know I cant trust her, I never will be able to again.
I just had to say this cos without sayin it I think have went mad cos noone really knows how I feel bout change.
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