I don't know where to start today!
Ok, so I'm currently training for my new job.
It's just Customer Service Administrator but it's a big leap from what I was doing, a lot to learn and a jump up the pay scale.
But I am travelling to Morden in Surrey from Peckham, London.
For those of you who haven't an idea of that distance it takes me from 7.30 to 9.15 from door to door.
I get up at 6, get ready and have breakfast. Bus, tube, bus and start learning something new. I seem to think I have a grip on the job and then something new pops up from nowhere and I'm thrown into confusion again.
Granted it has only been a week since I started the training but I feel so exhausted all the time. I won't have to travel like this everyday when I start alone, I will be in Westminster which is 45 minutes by bus.
Much easier.
I just feel so lost. This is a hard job for me, something so different yet so the same old ****. To explain a bit, I've been working for this company since December and I was doing a very similar job for **** money. Now however, I will be doing ten times more and where the job differs greatly, so do the systems they have in place. Meaning it's comparable to learning a new version of a language you've already known, used and become very familiar with?
I'm not explaining this very well.
I'm sooooooo tired!!! And I feel as though it's starting to break me yet I don't know eneough to do this on my own.
The office at the new site isn't even ready for me yet. I just feel like everyday is the same. Get up, travel, work, travel, eat dinner, bath and bed. No me time, no me-and-Ded time. No anything FFS!
*feels like crying very dramatically like when you were a child and your mum would tell you everything would be ok as long as it was over-the-top*
Humph.
x
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You might win one battle.
But know this; I'll win the ****ing war.
You know Iz I think people expect a new job to be as easy as the last job.... and it is always a zillion times worse! BUT it's only been a WEEK! You willl start getting less tired as you get a grip on more things and things will seem easier and you wont even notice that you're not getting as stressed out!
Take a day on the weekend, tackle ded and have some fun wherever you may be (if yuo're in a shopping centre be careful, cause you could get arrested)....
The way I do it (I work from 7-5) and anthony works from 2am - 10 am is that on the weekend, I always make sure there is time set aside for JUST us. And even if all we do is go for a drive, i feel better for the rest of the week. *cuddles*
*shoves you towards ween's bosom* :P
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
Aww thank you. I know it will sink in, some of it happens without looking at my notes so at least I know I'm learnin'!
I should be moving to 'Minster in about a week. I went there last week and I went past your part of the world and thought yay! I get to see more of my lover! We can do dinner and drinks and such after work.
Not too often though, as you can gather I'm always exhausted.
But sometimes. Thank you babe, I knew you'd undershtand moi.
Going to bed now, soooo tired.
Anyone else want to throw some pennies in the Izzie-shaped well?
Iz x
You might win one battle.
But know this; I'll win the ****ing war.
Thank you Jess. I'm so tired I needed directions!
I know that it will get easier, but you know when it feels so bleak it's hard to see the bright at the end of the dark? Getting up before the sun is pure evil.
I have told him we're doing nice things this weekend together.
Buying his suit for the wedding, looking at nice shoes for the both of us.
Getting a bottle or 3 of wine saturday night and staying in to watch poo telly and giggle.
Oh and LOTS of sex is intended for the weekend too. Or I will spontaneously combust!
Iz x
You might win one battle.
But know this; I'll win the ****ing war.
lol, you'll do just fine Iz! I know it's hard to be positive when the sun rises when you're on the bus/train/car and goes SUCKED IN I GOT TO SLEEP IN.... Anywho... that could just be my imagination, but i swear it does it! :P
Have a good weekend!!!!
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
I don't have to go to bed early.
I don't have to get up early.
I can sleep for as long as I want and go wedding shopping tomorrow.
Nice nice nice!
Work was harder today, they've sprung a whole lot of monthly works on me that I didn't know existed let alone had to do it alone when I move to my new office!
I'm scared of ****ing it all up, and I'm super scared that I will be destroyed buy this job.
Oh well. Thank F U C K it's friday, that's all I can say.
x
You might win one battle.
But know this; I'll win the ****ing war.
I know its hard. Im really proud of you. It shows people have faith in you and believe. The next step is to believe in your own abilities. You will go far.!
*Is a natural born Drama Queen*
I was meant to be a movie-star but I think I must have been evil in a previous life and so I'm an Administrator instead.
The two are often easily confused.
Thank you for the lovely words Matthew, all of you.
I know I'll get there but it's like recovery, I feel like I take a huge step forward and three giant steps back.
Almost like I'm starting all over again and I really didn't want it to be like this.
How the f*ck did I end up in Administration :/
My life so wasn't supposed to be like this.
x
You might win one battle.
But know this; I'll win the ****ing war.
i think you're going to be fine!
Training for my job took 5 weeks and I was completely knackered every night. Now, it's great and I like it. And its NOT boring, because of the challenges that keep being thrown my way.
Sounds like yours is going to be the same. But you'll get used to it, the travel will be less, and that makes a huge change to everything.
And well done for getting the new position! Fab!
Loz x
You don't have to be a monkey to recognize a banana!
