what can i do now...?

[bexico_louise2507]

Hey
Today i was diagnosed with depression and axiety disorder. I have known there must be something wrong with me for quite a while. I have been feeling really ill with it for a long time.
I just feel so low now that i hav been officially told that i need urgent help. My counsellor has reffered me to a psychiatrist, am really worried about that.
So yeh, dont really no why i posted this, guess i just needed to tell someone, but i feel really ashamed 2 tell anyone from skool or my football team...and i cant talk 2 my family as it is them that is causing it

thanks
Bex x

[Stellata]

*sits with you and listens*

How're your family causing your illness?

I know my parents were a major factor in how I got ill, but it wasn't intentional on their part, and they were ill too, but untreated.

[bexico_louise2507]

Ok, really long story and hard 2 explain...it dosnt sound like a big deal either....
basically, i became a christian 2years ago, and my whole family are really really anti. My nan and mum r especially nasty about it. My mum constantly slates me about it. The other day she told me that i have no friends at skool because im a christian, and that if she was at skool with me then she wouldnt want to be my friend either. She has said and done alot of other stuff aswel over the past 2years which is so difficult to talk or even think about.
My dad is anti aswel, but not quite so constant and in your face. But i dont live with him anywayz so it isn't quite such a big deal.
i have tried so so many times 2 tell my mum how im feeling....but she just dosnt understand atal and refuses 2 listen 2 me. We just get in a massive argument. I kinda wish that she knew she was making me ill, but im too scared of what she might say about it

xx

[loopylucy08]

Seeing the psychiatrist is nothing really to worry about. They usually just ask you lots of basic questions about your medical history, your background, your interests and how you see your issues and how you are feeling. They may get you to do some little quizzes too to assess your mood and anxiety. Then they will discuss ways that they could try and help you, for example they may perhaps suggest trying you on some medication or getting you some more specialist kind of support like a psychologist. None of this they can FORCE you to do, its just about finding the most appropriate ways to help you feel better.

I am so sorry your family have reacted negatively to your religious beliefs. At the end of the day, its your decision and not theres. Is there any one else who could try and speak to your mum about how this is making you feel and try and get her to see her behavious is unacceptable. For example your counsellor or a teacher or a friend's mum? Sometimes when it comes from somebody else in a tactful way, this can make the person involved think a lot more carefully about their actions.
Or maybe you could explore writing her a letter as some times when we see things written out in black and white on paper, it makes it more real and we have to face up to them. Your religious belief is a personal thing and it shouldnt affect whether people like you or not. If it was true about what your mum said about you having no friends due to your religious belief, then a hell of a lot of people in the world would be friendless!
Part of growing up is learning to be your own person and make your own decisions for yourself- not all of which your parents will like or agree with ( she says looking at her belly button piercing!!!). But at the end of the day, Im sure really deep down both your mum and your dad love you very much, and Im sure they would be mortified if they knew just how unhappy this is making you. Dont let there reactions affect your faith though. And also good luck with the psychiatrist, it really will be alright.