I AM TRIGGERED , I DONT KNOW WHY I JUST DONT KNOW.
I WANT TO SH SO SO BADLY . I CANT DO IT , BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO , THE STAFF KNOW I NEED TO , I TOLD THEM THEY GOING TO KEEP CHECKING UP ON ME TO SEE IF I AM OK .
I AM SCARED ......
I NEED HUGGLES ...
SORRY ABOUT MY RAMBELING ,
I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ,
I JUT CANT RELAPSE , I CANT
i made it through the night , i gave my tool to the staff this morning . but i got more but i wont use them. i dont think
i think i got them for more of a safety thing , when i gave them over to her i think it was a good idea. but i was thinking of other worse things like od...
but it ok thanks guys :) i think i can cope i think i can . i just hope i am strong *crys*
i dont know what triggerd me tonight . i'm unsure . how or why i made it through but i did ,
when i get triggerd it lasts a long while , i can go to sleep and then wake up the next day feeling the same.. i want to sh so much , i have a little bit , i mean little liek sumit thats hardly noticable u cant even see it ,but its made the urges stronger, i want to do it , i trying to distract my slef but its not working too good , :(
Remember that intense feelings do pass. The triggered feeling won't last forever. Just trust that you can make it through, and reach out for all the help you can.
the urge is still here , i am majorly trying to distract myself, i've stripped all the 12 beds here and washing the bedding , washing the 2 davids clothes and therasa's coat , drying adams clothes , helped cooked dinner and clean up (didnt eat nothin tho) going to new sainsburys to buy my t as i sick of eating the same thing , then planning on the bedding being clean and nice so remaking all 12 beds in time for my tea being cooked and then bed ... hope it works :) *huggles everyone here *
the non triggerd time has passed already ,people are triggering me , one ryl friend has told me loads of things bout her voices in her head and then my friend from home is worring me she text me can call me and then text me saying i think i've done something stupid .... now i am majorly triggered i want cry....*RUNS AWAY*
*holds you and offers tissue while you cry*. Why do you think that has triggered you? What would self harming achieve? How would it make this situation better in the long term? I'm not trying to be harsh, just trying to make you think about those questions and realise that self harming will not change what your friends are going through and will not make you any stronger. If anything it will make you less able to help them and will destroy some of the progress you have made, at least in your mind. Keep fighting it xx
