Would you be prepared to drop all your RYL friends to be better?
You wake up one morning and there is a fairy sat on your chest.
She says you can be completely free of all scars, illness and damage you have done to yourself, but that RYL will no longer exist for you and neither will a single person that you have met, talked to, made friends with or loved etc etc.
Effectively you can choose to keep your RYL friends and stay scared/ill or whatever, or be free of illness and scars but never see or hear from RYL or the people again.
Would you forget about the RYL people, or would you remember them? I.e. is it as if this has never happened, or you just stop talking.
I honestly don't know, because some people on RYL are like my family, or my life, or my love. Living without them in my life would be more unbearable than any of this.
The problems i have and face originate from others. Although it takes alot for me to get myself to believe this, abuse and bullying of my past and present are not my fault; it's that of others. Even though my mind will probably change again at some point about that :/
RYL has helped me come to terms with some of my emotions and helped me improve my social skills (which still appear to be lacking; things come across wrong, i never quite understand, etc). If anything, been here has taught me to let people get close to me. Even if i do panic and push them away occasionally.
But no, as my problems are because of others then i wouldn't give up RYL for the world and hope to stay for quite a while. No matter how much people are likely to get depressed hearing me say that (:
Yes Katie/ CHelsea, you would effectively be starting over again. You still have family and RL friends but you are totally free of illness. Your anxieties etc are gone. No more ocd, Sh, bi-polar etc etc. The RYL people would be in your memory but you cant ever see or speak to them again. No site access or anything.
No way.
It would mean not being friends with you little Maffew and I couldn't have that now could I?
Who else would tell me off for being a stroppy cow?
There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you.
But there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.
I aint no abacus but you can count on me.
Despite being recovered etc, no i wouldn't give it all up (or the scars indeed), i met my husband here (among other people) and they're not worth giving up.
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My heart just needs his smile, that i can't forget, like so melancholy a kiss.
i wouldn't choose being well. becasue going through this illness has made me who i am today and has given me a level of understanding for young epople going through the same thing. strangely enough, my scars are sometimes the only reason young people will tell me anything. they know i've been through some **** and they can see the proof.
if i wasn't working with those young people though... i would choose the being well option. as mch as it would break my heart to lose my friends here, i would be able to live again to the full power of what i could do.
but as it is, i'll just have to get threre myself *nods*
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
if it meant losing fox and those in real life that i care so much about no. It is tempting for me to leave ryl sometimes as i am recovered in a way as i am holding on to the past and would give up RYL to be fully recovered but as ireneh said i would end up being extremely lonely.This site has become the huge part of my life for the last 5 years.
I would say that if Matthew has a fairy sitting on his chest he should share the pills he is taking as im sure there not his regular ones
Seriously though, itis a difficult one. I would probably say that i wouldn't give it up as there is always chance of a relapse, plus the past would always still be there which is my main struggle. However if it was really to happen, then I am not so sure i would be strong enough to stick with my descion.
I hope this question is just a question an not some way of covering something bigger up lil pengy.
I would say that if Matthew has a fairy sitting on his chest he's had one hell of a night at a gay bar.
In your hypothetical situation, would the fairy make it so that you were never sick in the first place?
Well it breaks my heart to see you this way,
The beauty in life, where's it gone?
And somebody told me you were doing okay,
Somehow I guess they were wrong.
I'd never want to give up friends completely, having it all magicked away would be tempting but I wouldn't trust it to not take away the part of who I am that my rl friends are attracted to
*sits with knees to chest and rocks in the corner *
Tough choice. I am a differnt person when I am not here. I have been away for weeks at a time, but still thought of those here. I dont have much communication with anyone in real life but my husband and kids.
If i could go back to before the first time and start life over with out self injury. I would choose that. A life woith out mental issues. I would chose that. I would also choose hoping I would meet the people of RYL in other sites(maybe arty sites or diets sites or frog throwing sites) or even in RL There are so many wonderful peeps here. I would hope have an interaction/chance meeting other ways.
The people I've met through RYL have quickly become some of my closest friends. True, without SI and all that crap I may not need RYL, but I'm not one to abandon my friends for my own benefit like that. RYL has only brought me positive experiances, and there's not way I could leave that comfort. Not to mention, people would worry if I all of a sudden disappeared. If RYL had caused me problems in any way, then maybe my opinoin would be different, but this is part of my home now and I love you all too much.
In short, full recovery isn't worth losing such an amazing support system after all this time.
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