Feeling War-worn *possibly triggering*

[trekkiecab]

In my experience, going through the battle of life is hard.

I mean...At age 15 I was diagnosed as Bipolar(and i've been hospitalized 8 times for it.)I am almost 19 now. I am recovering from SI. My parents are divorcing; I've had 4 bad years in a row.

The point is that I'm afraid of losing my inner child. I feel that my "inner child" is diminishing too soon. I'm trying to cling to it, but i fear someday it will be beyond my grasp.

I mean before Bipolar disorder sat in, I was a positive happy-go-lucky person. Yeah I had struggles. But i could turn the other cheek as easily as i could walk and talk. Now I'm not like that AT ALL. Pessimism has set in. I mean i try to be positive... really i do. It's just hard when your whole world seems to be crashing down.

If i simply state the facts, yeah I NOW have it good, but I'm constantly "waiting for the other shoe to drop."

help please.
Chelsea

No words, but i'm sorry what your going through x hugs x

[Casper_Fading]

I think we expect it to not last. I know i do. But you're moving forward. Don't hold onto your illness and don't expect it to not last. Becasue the more you do that the more you sabotage yourslef. *hugs* you CAN get through this. Your 6 months free in a couple days! That's brilliant! Hold onto the good stuff hon, more will come!

[BoundNoMore]

Chels,
I have no words at the moment - my mind is mush.
Just letting you know I am thinking about you.