Triggering (SI/OD) - Lost

[xanthismom]

I have borderline personality disorder and i broke up with my boyfriend on thursday night,I have cut and od becoues i miss him so much,I had to leave him becoues he wqas controlling me and my money and never letting me go out with my cousin.Now im feelng hgeartbroken and regret it i txt him saying i was sorry and now i feel guilty and keep hurting myself,I cant go on how do i get over him.I got rid of pictures of us together but i dont know what else todo.

[Stellata]

You have no need to apologise. It was him who was behaving abusively towards you.
It's natural to miss him - BPD or not. It's human to miss someone you had a relationship; natural to feel that heartbreak.
You need to go through a process of grief. This involves usually talking about what you're feeling with people you trust, and allowing yourself to feel. You need comfort and soothing, not further hurt.