selfishness

[*lily*]

how did i get so selfish???
i met up with my best friend from a long time ago yesterday. we havent seen each other since his wedding 2 years ago and it was fantastic to catch up. until he started to talk about our other friend who he said has had a brain tumour removed and radiotherapy for the last few months!!!! he thought i knew. i couldnt believe it. i was shell shocked well and truly. apparently it was benign thank god and the radiotherapy was precautionary but he didnt tell me. we have drifted apart over the last few years but we have spoken on many occasions and he has never so much as hinted that anything was wrong. he has tried to call me a few times too when ive missed the call and not returned it. how did i become this selfish person who just ditched her friends? friends who ive known for years? my best friend who came to see me is getting divorced and everything ive not been there for him. and i come here exactly like now and i rant to you and give nothing back. i just dont know where this came from. i hate who i have become. i just cant be bothered with anyone basically. im so selfish all i can think about is mememe and it disgusts me. im sorry to do this to you yet again but i dont know what else to do with this.

[pea soup]

lily hunni,
youre not selfish.
youve been overwhelmed by many things lately. no one could expect you to keep up with everyone else and their problems. please dont think this way of yourself. you are so special lily. and you DO give back here. alot. dont ever doubt that!!! i dont know what we'd do without our lily!!!
much love
xx

[Merc]

*agrees with apple*
You DO give much back! You've always been there for me whenever i needed, always, and for countless others too.
Lily i think alot of it is the depression and all the other issues...the depression alone can and will make it hard to be interested in others, you get caught up in the hell of it and nothing gets thru sometimes...and for the most part you dont realize it is happening till soemthing like this happens.
You are not selfish...a truly selfish person wouldnt be upset by this, they owuldnt care and would have only tought of themsleves and not cared so much about the sad news from your friend.
You are so far from selfish luv, you really are
love you
romp

[Bitter_Angel]

Hunni, you have been ill. You can not give to other people when you feel run down yourself. When your not feeling great, the last thing you want to do is to speak to people who you dont feel close to.

You do give a lot back!! Arnt you the same lady who put herself at risk so that her gf didnt miss out on a concert? Your also the same person who is a pulmeria sister. And who answers loads of posts on here. Hardly selfish from where im standing!!

Take care
Kim

[chocostashchick]

i dont think that is being selfish at all
as kim said, you have been ill as well
granted a tumor is a different kind of illness, but also you cant be expected to be supportive of another if you dont know that they need your support
missing a couple phone calls and taking a little while to return them is normal and happens to us all when we are busy and going through a lot - it's normal and nothing even remotely selfish (and if it is then i am selfish too and so are a lot of others so you would have some company there but i dont think that it is true)
now that you do know, you can get in touch with them and let them know that you care and that you want to help support them through this