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Good News on the Whole
I recieved the ring through the post today from the ex! I really didn't think she would bother, and just ignore me, her engagement ring back frm me, the tenner I sent ++ the card my friend sent her 'persuading' her as well.
But no, I got it today just was a bit gutted that she didnt send one word of a note or letter with it.
Maybe I shouldn't expect anything with it but it was a bit cold I think.
So..once it is paid for by the end of Novemeber I can sell it.
Also last night there was a huge argument with my mum and stepdad so I went out for a walk and when I returned mum was by herself crying in the kitchen so i started crying and gave her a hug. She said she was going to have to give my Gran a ring to see if we could stay there. I asked her if she was scared {cos i was!!} but she said no, that there was no reason to be scared.
To try and keep this concise, my stepdad ended up downstairs and asked to speak to both of us and we all spoke about stuff none of us had said out loud for well,..the fear that people have of saying how they really feel and why they behave how they do? [or was that just me].
Well it seems now, that my mum and stepdad will be able to work it out but it gave me the chance to say I was going to move out!
I really didn't think i'd feel able to bring it up for months and therefore stay here. So I was really relieved for that and will start to actively look for a place to move to / save for a deposit etc.
It's been quite a dramatic couple of days. I feel a bit pathetic for saying this but I feel like I need to somehow "take it in". It's all been so much plus even though the ring is a physical thing I think i need to see it as more than that and instead, the closure that it basically is of the engagement that just didn't work out.
I just hope that it isn't hard to let go of it once Nov 22nd comes around.
Ty for reading.
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