Rant - fed up

[guiltyinnocence]

my head hurts and im tired and i feel sick
ive got my last 2 a-levels tomorrow and iv not revised
i just cant, im so fed up
im just at a point where everything in life just seems too hard
and ive basically failed my a-levels
and yeh i can resit but it doesnt stop me feeling like a complete and utter failure
and no things wont get better when the exams are over cus at least while the exams were on i could stay in my room and be unsociable and not be questioned..now people might notice and i dont want that
urgh, im just so down
at this moment in time i just want to die, im just ready to give up
but obviously theres a bigger part of me thats wants to stay cus im still alive
i dont want to live this life anymore
i dont want to live inside my head...

[youmakemefeellikeawhore]

sounds like you got a full plate, love.
i cant give you much advice...i myself was a pretty mediocre student in high school, and i still tend to avoid challenging myself...im not sure what "a-levels" are, but im assuming they're like harder classes than usual? accelerated level or something? if that's the case, then i give you mad props for even trying; challenging yourself is brave.

and...if nothing else, just remember: one day, your classes will end, and things will be okay. worst case scinario, you do fail, and then what? you still have your life. you still have yourself. and you can move on. one day, maybe not today or even this week, but one day in the future something so amazing will happen, and youll feel so great youll stop and think, "wow. its all worth it. everything up to right now has been worth this moment."

hang in there.

[Too Shy]

Hi guiltyinnocence. :)

I hope your A-levels have gone ok today. Try not to worry too much about how your exams went - you can't change it now, and like you said, if you really need it, you can resit them. I know that advice is cliched, but it's also true - so please try and remember that. If you need to resit, that doesn't make you a complete and utter failure at all - it means you're strong, because you want to reach your potential.

It sounds like you're just completely exhausted at the moment, and have had enough - I know the feeling, 'cos I finished my A-levels last week too. I think you probably need some time to rest and relax, and just treat yourself and reward yourself for completing your exams - getting through your exams is a really huge achievement when you're feeling so fed-up, so well done for that. :) It's really positive that you've said a bigger part of you wants to stay - try and focus on that, if you can.

Could you talk to someone about how worried you are? It's understandable that your exams are getting you down, and talking might help you to get your feelings out.

Take care xx

[craola]

Im sorry you're finding things so tough at the moment, the amount of stress that is put on you during exams is rediculous and it really does get you down. I know everyone says that A Levels are important, but they are really not. If you fail its not as though you have failed because you're lazy or useless, its because you are going through a tough time. Its not failure, it doesnt make you a failure. I know you wont believe me, but its true.
When I did my A levels I was a complete state. My grades wont get me in anywhere, but when im better, if I need to, i'll redo them. Its not failure.

I think you need to talk to someone hun, a member of your family, a friend, someone you trust. Tell them how you're feeling and what you're going through, you should'nt have to cope on your own. You could go see your GP if you want to get some extra support, they could help you to sort things out so that you're more stable.

Take care hun, you can talk to us
Aimee xx