I used to hear just one voice, Beth. She tells me to hurt people, to kill myself and hurt myself. But recently there's been a man talking to Beth about me.
At first he was nice, telling her to be nice to me. And that's why I've spent the last month not self harming and staying strong, because I had someone sticking up for me.
But today the things he said were not nice, they were really nasty. He was calling me fat, ugly, worthless, stupid, a f****** c*** and a dirty bitch. He said my boyfriend hates me and is having sex with other girls since he moved away.
He doesn't talk directly to me, him and Beth bitch about me. He's only talked to me once when I said "Why are you being so mean? You used to like me." He told me to shut up and f*** off.
I'm scared. Am I going crazier?
hey hun *hugs* I'm sorry these voices have taken a turn for the worse for you, do you have a therapist or a pych or anybody that you can inform about this development in the voices?
In my experience it's best to nip these kind of voices in the bud by informing somebody about them and getting help
are you on any medication?
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"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
You need to talk to someone about this, if only to ease your mind a little, which will hopefully calm the situtation a little.
We here for you, but it might be worth seeing a professional.
pm box is always open should you need it.
k x
Went to A&E last night because I was so scared I was going to do something....stupid. He upped my dose of Risperedone and made me an appointment with my psych for today, we're going to discuss if IP is a good idea. x
Yeah, I called NHS direct to ask what would happen next. You know, if I'd die and they called an ambulance. They took a blood test and then I left because I didn't want to see the psych liason. x
It's all too much. Beth is telling me to hurt people and the man is saying I'm too weak and that he's going to possess me tonight. It's like he's giving me an ultimatum; I do as Beth says or he possesses me and makes me do it.
I'm so scared, what do I do? x
It's actually bizzare how much I can relate to you
The girl in my head tells me that if I don't do what she says she will possess me and make me hurt somebody, but do you know what?
She doesn't have the power to do that hunni and neither does your voice
Your strong enough to beat those pesky voices
I have faith in you, I know you can do it
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
I got very drunk last night, I was feeling really depressed and thought alcohol was a good idea.
The voices are particularly bad today. Really struggling.
