Today started like every other Monday. I went to the psychologist, and it went well, I was scare, but in the end it was good.
The problem was when I got home, I wasn't even in when I heard the fight my brothers were having and then when I got inside we all started to fight becuase the computer didn't work, and like always my older brother doesn't listen, he just jumps into conclusions and of course he did today. It was a really bad moment, I was happy and okay and not even 5 minutes later after I got home I was ready to cut. I did what I've been doing this last year when I feel like cutting, I put on my MP4 and when for a walk.
When I got home everything was better, but then again in the afternoon we had another fight. I'm so tired of fighting over nothing, I don't understand why my brother can just back off and don't bother me.
My RYL family
Little sisters:Shae-Lynn*, Ugly.Duckling,Rainey, NaiveRagDoll
Special little sister: save_myself
Niece: Brenro
First of all - I'm so proud of you for being able to beat those urges! I actually do exactly the same when I'm triggered, great minds think alike! But I totally understand how constant arguing could be unsettling. Well done for taking positive action!
Have you ever spoken to your brother about how you want these arguments to stop? Or even spoken to one of your parents when they're in a good mood? Sometimes it can even be the age of your siblings, or if you're not particularly close to them? Take care of yourself, honey, and well done again!
You did so well going for a walk and beating the urge - that's a massive, massive achievement!!
Brother and sisters tend to fight over very simple things, but after the fight they seem like they may have been a life or death situation the amount of arguing that went on!!
I agree with Euphoria Blossom, perhaps speaking to your brothers might help?
Well done again, you did great! xxxxx
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Well done you for beating those urges, you're amazing & you should be really proud of yourself.
I am sorry you're going through such a rough time with your brother. I can relate, I've got two younger brothers and it feels to me like if I'm not arguing with one I'm arguing with the other.
Like both the above posters have said, talking might really help. You could try talking at a time when everything is calm and perhaps in a neutral environment? Certainly not somewhere you argue a lot.
sorry home life is rough but your so strong for not cutting sweetie
i dont have a brother or sister who live with me they never really have but iv had problems with them and when we talk we do fight sometimes its better that if you can write it down and send him a letter to say how you feel about it all? it might help does for me with my sister as i find it hard to talk to them
hope your ok, take care
midnight xxxx
There is no chance, no destiny no fate that can circumvent or hinder or control the firm resolve of a determined soul
you ahve done so well to prevent the self harm.
can you speak to your brother or have your paretns speak to him about how he is making you feel~?
boys will be boys....you just have to keep doing what you are doing.
First thanks for what you said. I talk with my brother last night, he said he was sorry for what he did and I let him know that I don't like fighting with him and that he always hurts me when we fight, so I ask him to try not to fight me anymore, it was good to have that talk.
My RYL family
Little sisters:Shae-Lynn*, Ugly.Duckling,Rainey, NaiveRagDoll
Special little sister: save_myself
Niece: Brenro