Various difficulties about leaving hospital- help!

[dubagirl]

I'm sorry to be writing so much, I'm not good at keeping things short and simple!!
It's been about 6 and a half months since I got admitted to an adolescent ward and I'm gradually becoming a daypatient, with the view to being completely discharged in maybe a month or so? Basically I'm pretty damn terrified about the prospect of being discharged. I think the worst aspect about it for me is that I get attached to people very easy and so I find leaving anywhere extremely difficult and start to blame myself about everything. I have no idea how I will cope without my named nurse in particular as she knows me so so well and is such a great help to me. Luckily I will be seen by the outreach team (who work in conjunction with my ward) when I'm discharged but then in a month and a bit I'm being transferred to adult services anyway so I'll have to leave all my other doctors behind so soon after leaving the ward staff.
Obviously another big worry is not being able to cope with my depression and anxiety, and once I get caught up in negative thoughts I find it incredibly difficult to pull myself out of it- I still rely on others to keep me safe rather than doing it myself when I'm vulnerable. So I'm thinking it's fairly likely I'll attempt suicide again when I'm discharged- something I really don't want to do as, firstly, I hate doing it because of the guilt that's involved, and also because I really want to avoid going onto an adult ward when my care is in the hands of the adult services rather than CAMHS.
I was wondering if anyone has any advice about how I could make the whole discharge process easier to cope with, particularly about my difficulties with leaving people who I trust so much behind. Not sure if there's much anyone can suggest but I thought I'd see just in case?

Thank you in advance :) xxxx

[so_confused]

hi dubagirl...ive never been in a ward before, i was nearly admitted to hospital after runningaway from home and trying to commit suicide...what if you made plans to keep in touch with the nurses? that might give you the boost to be able to leave-knowing you can come back?
Why exactly were you admitted yo hospital may i ask?
This is my story...my best friend on here and I made this thread, please feel free to visit it and have a read, you might find you feel the same way...and ask us anything you want to..xxx
http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...ad.php?t=46389

[alienshe_cheesycake]

have you talked about how your feeling to the staff on the ward?
Its understandable that you feel scared leaving hospital
It does feel sometimes like thats the safest place to be

I was in the same position of you, I got really attached to theward and the staff looking after me
and it was a very scary prospect (leaving) but I gradually adapted to outside life

But the longer you stay on the ward the more attatched you will get to it
There's always a risk you may become institutionalised.

Have you discussed with the people looking after you your fears?

[LetMeSlipAway]

hiya!! im in the exact same positiion as urself so i no how ur feeling!! ive been in nearly 7 months now and for 5 and a half of those months i was in an adolesant ward! i loved my adolesant ward and miss it loads... i miss the staff and all the other young people!! it was a safe place to be! when i had to be discharged from there and put into an adult ward i thought at the time that it was the worst thing in the world but when i got settled into the adult hospital i soon settled in! although the staff at the adolesant ward were probably a bit more pleasent that the ones in the adult ones and theres a load more activity in the adolesant 2!!

it is scary as hell having to leave u will get used to it... as will i when i get out of my adult ward in a few weeks time!!
if u feel ur not ready say something to ur primary nurse! dont do nething ul end up regrettin or the chances are ul be put back in and possibly to an adult ward if u turn 18!! talk 2 ur nurses or ne one on here even me if u need a chance!! i no how ur feelin im goin thru the same things myself as il be leavin an adult ward soon!!

feel free to PM me at anytime!! dont wait before its to late hun!! take care!xo

[Sleepless123]

Hey i know it must be so scary but it really does seem important you try to talk to someone in the hospital maybe your named nurse [as i got the impression you may trust him/her] about how you are feeling right now.It may be scary to open up and admit about but hopefully you will feel much better afterwards.They will understand and be able to help guide you through it.Also have you met anyone who will be supporting you in the community after discharge?Just i was thinking it might help for you to meet them before discharge to make things a bit easier and just so you know somebody will definitely be there for you and you know who they are etc.Also of course we will always be here for you too.Good luck.

[musicmad123]

hey totally know how you're feeling, I've only been inpatient for about a month, but I know how you feel I've become quite attached to a few of the nurses and I hate leaving people too. basically just to agree with what others have said, talk to them about it. Good Luck, leaving will be hard at first but hopefully in the end you'll end up happier :)

[hellohefalump]

Hi, I was in a ward fro 7 months and it was scary coming out. But after a while I started to feel quite liberated. Like, there's so much stuff you can do when you're not inpatient! Just the little things like being on your own, getting a bus, going to parks...