My life seems to be dissolving.
I didn't notice one of my best friends was suicidal until i noticed her post here, wuite by chance, i didn't see who it was by or anything, jsut thought, oooo, that looks bad i'd better go take a look, and it turnes out Abbii wants out, I wasn't expecting that, an to top it off theres not a clear inch of skin o nmy stomach, i hurt so much. I have no emotion no feeling no life left in me to survive with. Funny thing is i've never wanted to live more and yet i dont want to remain alive, how does that work out? I dont get it. My whole world is a total mess. I hate myself tonight. I just want to pass out, wake up i na few weeks and be told it was all a bad drea bought on by falling down the stairs and that its now the summer holidays. They seem to hold all the promise and the hope. I dont know what to do with myself tonight i really dont. I dont want to die, but i do, im tiered but im too high to sleep, its all odd and i cant feel anymore, i feel like i have no emotions left, im just so numb.
*hugs*
don't beat yourself up about your friend, these things are hard to notice and hidden well. what's important is that you care about her and she knows that
it sounds like your having a bit of a rough time at the moment, but things will get better just hang on in there
it'll be the summer holidays in no time =)
don't hate yourself, you are a lovely person
try watching a film or listening to some chilled out music in bed, it might help you fall asleep
i'm always here for you to chat to, i'll be up most the night =)
you can get through this, stay safe
luv saz xxxx
Bed is probably a good idea. I hope you feel better when you get up. And remember, you're probably someone who can understand your friend the best, and therefore you guys can help each other :)
Hey,
Try not to worry about noticing your friends post. As you probably are, she's good at hiding things.
Just let her know you're there for her, and maybe both of you can work through this together. Your problems included.
There's only a couple of weeks of school left, thank god, which means it'll soon be the summer holidays and you can chill.
Just hang in there, i'm always around to talk, feel free to PM me, email me, MSN me, whatever.
Take care hunni,
Tiff
xxx
I have been a suicidal person for years but I always manage to get through somehow and I become happy again untill the next episode.
So you never know, your friend could just be having an episode. I still recommend you sit her down for a talk though.
"The word 'crazy' is one of those that is undefinable. Sure, it may be in the dictionary. However no one you ask will be able to tell you what it means without personal view involved, and just factual information. Most will tell you it means 'not sane'. But if nobody knows what it means to be crazy, how can we know how to be sane?
Does that make us all crazy?"
