Its now september, and that means its definately over a year since i last SHd.
I know the last time would have been some time in august last year but i havent got my old diaries so i dont know exactly when...
Everything is going well these days - i'm lucky enough to say that I'm now the happiest ive ever been - i have an amazing boyfriend, who knows all about my depression/anxiety/SH past and accepts and loves me for me, (as opposed to the ones i used to date who only made matters worse, didnt care about me and even threatened to hurt me if i ever SHd again) i have a new role at work in a better dept, i dont have panic attacks daily anymore...
I'm not saying life is perfect - far from it - and i do still have days where it feels like it all could fall apart... but i have much better support now and also i myself am in a much better place in my head to cope with life.
Just wanted to say - there IS light (and life) at the end of the tunnel. Keep pushing.
this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!! 
