Sentimental

Ratatouille strychnine · 03-09-2008, 12:51 AM

Never want to be old
And I don’t want dependence
It’s no fun to be told
That you can’t blame your parents anymore

I’m finding it hard
To hang from a star
Don’t want to be
Never want to be old

Sullen and bored the kids stay
And in this way they wish away each day…
Stoned in the mall the kids play
And in this way wish away each day…

I don’t really know
If I care what is normal
And I’m not really sure
If the pills I’ve been taking are helping

I'm wasting my life
Hurting inside
I don’t really know
And I’m not really sure

Sullen and bored the kids stay
And in this way they wish away each day…
Stoned in the mall the kids play
And in this way wish away each day…

Sullen and bored the kids stay
And in this way they wish away each day…
Stoned in the mall the kids play
And in this way wish away each day…

I don't like being grown up. I know 19 is hardly grown up but I don't like being £1,200 overdrawn and on the verge of losing both my job and my career prospects in one fell swoop as I am going to fail my resits. I simply do not know the topics well enough.

I'm wasting my life and I'm feeling pretty low but I don't know what to do about it and what do do about myself. I wish there was some magical resit switch to undo the last year of my life and give me another shot at it.

Bitter_Angel · 03-09-2008, 12:55 AM

No one would find that fun no matter how "grown up" you are Rob.
Perhaps you could try making a list of all the things bothering you and then work through some ways of fixing it.

As for everything else, whats the worst that can happen. Losing your job might seem like a big deal, but really its not in the grand scheme of things. You still have the important stuff like your health and your friends. New jobs can be found, ones where you feel more comfortable and happy. Because that is what matters more than anything else is feeling happy. If your not feeling it now then change things till you do.

*cuddles*

Casper_Fading · 03-09-2008, 01:00 AM

are you able to defer your re sits for a little while? Get an exemption or something??? *pets* it's not fun at all from the sounds of it. Can anyone help you out???

BoundNoMore · 03-09-2008, 01:12 AM

*hugs Rob*

blondiebear · 03-09-2008, 02:37 AM

Things don't work out as we expect them to. I've had a total lesson in that in the last few years. Things may not be the way you want them to be or how they should be. They will be okay for all that.

UbermoronicismAgain · 03-09-2008, 10:20 AM

I think it's tough to see that things happen beyond our control. Sometimes we just need to take a step back and see what we can do to resolve them.

Growing up can be as exciting as it is dull! You just have to find the fun and positive in things. Jobs suck, but you can always find another. There are limitless possibilities.

Have you spoken to your GP? You should be able to put the resits off I would have thought. Or postpone them until next year and do more study?

I hope things work out for you, chin up.

Iz x

03-09-2008, 10:46 AM

I'm right there with you, being an adult sucks, but hey remember what it was like to be a hormonal teenager? Now that sucked!
You will get there and things will play out, don't let your head run away with everything happening at once, it can be too overwhelming. Just take it one problem at a time and try to resolve it that way.
If theres anyone you can talk things through with please do, be it friend, councillor or GP.
x hugs x

Ratatouille strychnine · 05-09-2008, 12:05 AM

Two exams. Two failures. Failure number three coming up in around 9 hours time.

I feel surprisingly good about it, though. I've almost stopped caring. I've done almost no revision for this exam but I don't care. I think with the previous two, no matter how I do in this one won't make much difference.

I think I need a year or two out to get some money, forget about exams and reassess my priorities. I have a place already (where I would be staying if I was at uni) and if I can find a job in the local area to support myself I can maybe reapply to uni in a couple of years if that's what I still want to do and I can do the course again being better prepared and knowing what to expect.

It sounds like a good plan but it's reliant on me finding some work here and quickly. If I don't then I don't know what I'm going to do, though.

There a few other hurdles to get over too.

blondiebear · 05-09-2008, 03:27 AM

Your ideas sound like a good start.
Keep us up to date on what is going on please?

irkeninvader · 05-09-2008, 08:42 AM

If you speak to your Uni, you might be able to defer your course so they will hold you place open for the time you tell them you want to go back but if you decide it's not for you, you don't have to take it.

Taking some time out sounds like a good idea and I'm sure they would rather you did the course when you are in a position to do it well. Good luck with the job hunt!