The voices in my head told me to kill myself on Tuesday. They've been planning this for a while and I think I agree with them. It seems like the only option anymore. I don't know what to do. I just feel so hopeless and I'm afraid of myself. Sometimes I just do what the voices tell me to and I don't even remember doing it. I don't know what to do anymore. The problem is that lately I really want to kill myself but usually I'm too much of a chicken to actually try. But now I'm afraid that I'm just going to listen to the voices. I can feel it coming.
The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person.
you need to be strong. and you need to take control. it sounds hard but you proved something: your to chincken" mayve your not. maybe you just really dont want to. seek help ........be strong
**hug***
"The cuts on my skin arent WHOIam, The cuts on my skin arent PART ofme
The cuts on my skin arent FORshow but the cuts on my skin show THE WORLD ApartOFwhoIAM." -LyricsToMyLife
If you know that your going insane does the fact that you KNOW make you sane?
You don't have to agree with them. Try and create some space between them and you. Tell them to GO AWAY and to leave you alone. They are tormenting you and dragging you into their mind set.
Have you told those involved in your treatment about what the voices say? Expressing them in a safe place can be very relieving. I always feel so much safer after telling my therapist what The Other One in me thinks and wants and feels. And I start to feel sad that this Other feeling state in me wants to hurt and destroy me.
You have so much to offer, so much life yet to come.
Don't let the voices try and take that away from you.
I haven't said this publically before, although I've told my therapist, but, back in 1996 when I was very unwell, but at the time not having treatment, I heard a voice telling me 'In 5 years you are going to die'. This disturbed me a lot, but I didn't, by some miracle at the time, I feel, give in to it. And I am glad I didn't. 11 years on my life is much better, way way better, and I am getting the support I need.
Sorry to ramble on with my story. :)
Lizzie those voices are wrong, they are lying to you and you have to ignore them. I think you need to get some help if the voices are becoming hard to resist. Are you seeing a therepist or anyone? If so you really need to talk to them and tell them whats happening and how you're feeling. If you're not seeing someone you should go to your GP and talk to them about it.
We dont want to lose you Miss Lizzie, you're doing so well and we are so proud of you. Take care sweet, if you ever want to talk give me a poke ok?
Aimee xx
please chick talk to someone... you are too good a person to listen to those voices! talk to someone or get help if you feel in danger or are feeling like you might or are planning to do any, please! your a great person, and no-one wants you to listen to the voices!
Aw Lizzie, I am so sorry you are feeling this way. Please talk to somebody about this and keep yourself safe. The voices are lying to you, please don't listen to them. I'm here if you want to talk.
Jess xx
I wanna stay inside all day
I want the world to go away
I tried talking to my best friend, but she didn't know what to do. Plus she's really depressed, and I just found out today that she is really suicidal too. Now I just feel worse. I think the voices must be right. I'm a horrible person. How could I not have noticed that my best friend wanted to kill herself again? I mean she tried in April. I should have noticed. I feel like a horrible friend.
The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person.
That doesn't make you a horrible person honey. Sometimes its hard to notice that, especially when you have your own problems going on. I understand wanting to take care of your friend, and thats a great goal, but you have to put yourself first and realize that you can't take care of everyone or know everything.
Now, that said, do you have periods of time missing? Hours or days that you can't remember what happened and you just kind of 'woke up' elsewhere later?
Reguardless of your answers to those questions, everyone else is right. You can't listen to those voices. You know what is right and I know its tiring to fight them, but you can do it. Deep down, you know you are a good person and you know how much you mean to others. You made the first step in trying to get help by posting here. You need more help than we can give you though. Perhaps you could start by talking to your school psychologist or getting a referral from a family doctor?
Anyway, I'm always here if you need to talk. I'm also always willing to try to help you find ways of getting help, so just PM me. *hugs* I hope things get better for you hon.
"I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night wanting, but still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen."
PLease please tell someone who can help you. There are other options, you just have to find them but you don't have to do it alone, three's help out there. Try not to listen to the voices when they're saying thigns like that. I know it's hard but things will get better for you. pm me if you want to talk, I had voices telling me the same thing before as well, I told my frined and she told me to go to the hospital and they helped me.
Sometimes I do forget what I've done. Or I do something and I don't even remember that I've done it. Especially cutting myself. A lot of times I dont' even remember doing it anymore. I'm so scared of myself.
The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person.
Lizzie you have to talk to someone who can help you, you have to go and see a GP or go to A&E if you're really worried. You need to be kept safe. Please go and see someone.
