I need some kindness, please

[Stellata]

As you can see in my other threads and in my Blog, I'm still really really struggling.
I'm doing my best to keep things in perspective, but I'm slipping in and out of semi-psychotic states from severe anxiety, rage, and aloneness.

I just don't have the internal resources to be there for others much at all right now. I'm barely here for myself.

Noone is likely to post a support thread for me. Maybe you're not even aware of how much I'm struggling. It's hard to talk here about all that's going on for me, because it's so complex and multi-layered. I explain things more in my Blog.
But I would really appreciate some words of kindness and support. Please.

[Aphelion]

Katie *cuddles* I'm sorry you're going through a rough time darling. I hope things get better for you soon.
In the mean time, we're here for you. Never forget that
*adds extra warm squishes*

[Pictsie]

Things will get better, don't worry if you can't support others you have to look after yourself first

Sorry I can't say more, but be strong, PM someone if you need to talk, myself included

Hope you feel more stable and better soon

[The One Who]

*hugs* Don't worry about not being able to support others, the main thing is being OK yourself.

You're so strong, just remember that. We're all here for you.

[xbeckyx]

I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now, don't worry about supporting others at the moment, you need to look after yourself first hun.
Feel free to PM if you need a chat, or just rant at me :)
Take care of yourself.

[crazykat]

Karie I am sorry to hear that you are struggling so much at the moment, I hope that things start to improve for you soon. Also its ok to not be able to support people, I think right now you need to be there for yourself. Let us be here to lean on for a change. *Gives massive hugs*

[Cazki]

*Cuddles you* Im sorry to hear your having such a hard time. Dont beatyourself up about not being able to support other members at the moment. Its important that while your struggling you look after yourself. We dont expect you to support while your feeling this way. I do hope you feel better soon though. Im thinking of you.

All the best
Ian xxxxxx

[charcoal feathers]

*cuddles*
I'm sorry things are so hard for you right now, just remember we're all here for you if you need us.
You can get through this.
Take care
x

[Sweetest Downfall]

I'm not very sure what I can say to make anything better at all but...

I really hope things look up for you. you might be struggling now but you can fight it because you are a strong strong person. you might not feel it but we all see it!
I send every inch of hope to you in getting yourself in a good state again, and I know you can do this!
*sends love*
x

[Getting_There_Monkey]

*hugs*

[Porcelain Child]

(((holds gently)))

I was thinking about a support thread... but i didn't think you would like that idea.. so didn't take it any further...

Things will get better... i know things are hard now... but you can lean on us and let us support you...

I am sorry you are struggling so much... *cuddles*

Claire...

[88shelz]

huni if you need support let us know and we will support you all we can.

i dnt bite so dont be afraid to have a chat with e if need be...

its great that you recognised you need support. you should be proud of yourself.

what do you think ppl can do to help you and support you?

[one_step_closer]

You know i'm here for you and I have faith that you can get through this tough time. Let me know if you need anything. Take care.

[falling tears]

ok , please note that we do care about you. i am so sorry that you are struggling so much at the moment, but please please feel free to pm me as i would really like to be there for you and see how you are getting on.

there is hope out there for you and you will get through this but it is always good to have people by your side.

please use us to help you. And pm me any time.

BTW are you getting any proffesional help atm?

[Stellata]

Thank you..

Jenny, the main reason I am struggling is because my therapist is away at the moment. We have a break for a month every August. Not through my choice, I have to say...

[falling tears]

thats shitty, is ther anyone else around that you can see. i see my doctor sometimes if my therapist is away or whatever?

i really do mean it whan i say i want to be there for you, and you can rant to me all you want whenever you want.

you will get through this. how is the self harming going?
hope your safe?

[Stellata]

I've been seeing my/the doctor once a week. For 10 minutes a time. And yesterday when the 10 minutes was up she said that we had to stop because she had other people waiting outside. I do see my regular doctor this coming Friday though. She's a bit 'warmer'.

I've not hurt myself since Wednesday, which is something.

Thanks Jenny.

[TimesLikeThese]

I'm sorry to hear you're struggling at the moment. Try to not think of it so much, because the more you remind yourself of it, the deeper the hole you're digging gets.

Remember you're not alone, and never will be.

Take time to work out what it is you're going to do to help you through this.

We're all here for you. Take care.

[alienshe_cheesycake]

Hey, just wanted to say that I'm sorry to hear that your having a hard time lately, I don't know you very well but I've seen you around the forums and I know your a lovely supportive RYLer and you deserve to be happy so I'm sorry to hear your not doing so well, you can PM me anytime you need to talk *hugs* xxxxxxxxxx

[Stellata]

Thank you both.