Triggering (SI) - very triggered...really need someone to talk to
on friday at work i broke my foot. i had to go to the er and have xrays and all that good stuff. they didnt put it in a cast because it was too swollen and they wanted me to come back on wed for another xray to see if i needed a cast or surgery.
the xray tech was such a JERK!!! i have had bad experiences with ppl in the medical profession before but not like this guy. he pulled up my work pants to start taking the xrays and he saw my scars. he shook his head and said "i just dont get why kids with perfectly happy lives feel the need to go slicing and dicing themselves"
WTF!?!?! i was so hurt and angry and idk what else to say. i just couldnt believe he would say that. he doesnt know me or what i have been thru!! but it made me feel so guilty. like i am such a ungreatful person for doing it. im still replaying it in my mind today.
so ive been really down and last night i had a flash back, but instead of my usual si, i started punching my broken foot instead. and now its really swollen.
right now im just a mess and really need someone to talk to...
ohhhh hun I'm sorry that it so wrong and horrible I'd go and make a complaint about him that's just out of order, how does your foot feel ? could you go back and get seen by someone else to make sure it's ok ?
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That is horrible. I can't believe someone can be so unkind and so awful. Seriously, the human race never stops surprising me... and not in a good way. That was out of line, and you are not ungrateful for doing it. He was making an assumption that made him look like a total ass. (you know when you assume you make an ass out of u and me {teehee}) Try not to think about it, that guy doesn't deserve it. You don't need to feel guilty about it, but I know what you mean about feeling that way. Try and forget about it, I know it's hard, but that's the best advice I have.
I hope my rambling was in some way helpful, I'm sorry if it wasn't :) *hugs*
What he did was really uncalled for. I hate it so much when people judge others without even knowing them. He obviously doesn’t know anything about self injury and that’s his fault not yours. It’s his fault so try not to feel guilty for a stupid thing that he did.
That sucks that he was a jerk about it. It's not his position to comment on your scars like that. He should just do his job and that's it. So, I understand why you would be angry. I would be pissed off too.
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People like that are just jerks, and not worth wasting time thinking about. I agree with musicmad123, see if you can complain, it wasn't his place to say anything, especially not something negative like that.
I hope your foot is ok. XXX
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thank you everyone for your kind posts. that guy was a real jerk, and i am trying to not let him get to me, hopefully when i go in tomorrow for my second round of xrays he isnt the one to do it.
I had a doctor be really insistant about my cutting/ scars the other month. It really upset me because I was there for nothing to do with that and though I was preparedfor it to be mentioned he sshouldn't have been how he was. For that andthe fact that he ordered scans for me which I've already had and I need to see my proper consultant for professional reasons as my health problems affect my degree, I ended up emailing my consultants sec about it and everything is all sorted now and I'm seeing my proper guy next time I go. So, putting up a complaint may help. It may not make that much difference due to you not really seeing him again and the job beingdone but it may mean that theytalk tohim and tell him to be a bit more sensitive so if he sees you or other self harmers he doesn't say what he did again as that is out of line really.
hhhmmm. i never thought of that. maybe i should make a complaint. not to get him in trouble but hopefully so someone talks to him and hopefully he will learn to be more sensitive in the future. good idea! thanx
*hugs* making a complain sounds like a good idea... but if ya dont want him to get in trouble maybe tell them that they should ask him to be more sensitive and not to treat other people like that. then if they get other complaints then maybe they can take it further with him then. sorry this made no sense
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Arrrghhh. What an asshole, nobody should ever judge you like that before they even know you.! I'm shure your feeling horrible now, but be strong & ignore his remarks, how would he like it if somebody said that to him, if he was in the same position as you are now!!!
people can be hurtful, but be strong & know that your not a bad person to si, because a lot of people do it for soo many reasons.
I think HE should be the one that's feeling guilty, for he was the one to judge you & say such a thing like that.
He's probably not that great himself & had insecurities too.
take care xxx
“My skin is like a map,
of where my heart has been
I can't hide the marks,
It 's not a negative thing...”
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