Does any1 like what they are doing to them selves, Because i have never regretted anything i have done to my self, bin self harming for 7 years, taken god know how many od in those years takin 5 in the last week and dnt regrete any thing like people on forums say they regrete it but i dnt. I love to see the scars building up and the cuts on my arms.
I go through stages where I don't really care about what happens. I OD and self harm as well, without a care. This is the place I am currently in. It is a very hopeless stage, I know. And I am sorry to hear that you are also currently in it. But you are not alone. Message me anytime.
for the first couple of years i didnt care at all. i had nothing to live for and it didnt matter what i did to myself because it didnt matter to anyone around me.
but now i do care and i regret it a lot. so idk...
but i do remember what its like to not care about it at all.
It’s complicated for me. I love seeing the scars but there are times where I wish I didn’t have to try to hide them. There are times I wish I didn’t have to lie about why I can’t go swimming. There are times where I wish I hadn’t done it because I was so close to making it a whole year. I still love the blood. I still love the felling and the pain but I would rather live without it.
i never regret it, even on hot days. i don't think 'i wish these scars weren't here so i wouldn't have to hide them' i think 'i wish other people weren't here so i wouldn't haev to hide them'.
i don't think 'i wish these scars weren't here so i wouldn't have to hide them' i think 'i wish other people weren't here so i wouldn't haev to hide them'.
Exactly.
Tonight I'm alive just to say I love you to death.
lmao. exactly. but what do you do if someone asks?
personally i got asked today, even though they where having a little giggle about (nothing like 'emo' n ****) i think you need to stay calm and simply answer any questions. its so much simpler then arguing, and it also makes some people realise that there opinions on the subject are biased and wrong
I go through phases. If I had absolutely no contact with anyone in my life...I wouldn't care at all. I only care because I love the people around me and I don't want to see them hurt and confused. I do like si-ing. It's just the other people that make it complicated. SI-ing and my career are very conflicting. I worked way to hard to get where I am to lose it all. I love my career more than I like cutting so therefore I need to work to at least not do it too often.
i relate to a lot of what you guys said. I love haveing scars but i hate having to hide them, and if i diddnt have any contact with anybody then i wouldnt care about cutting but i do because it hurts my family and friends. Usually i do just love everything about it though
"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle."
I didnt start caring untill I met my current BF...I just recently told him about my SI, but before he ever new he was telling me how pretty and sweet and caring ect...thats when I really started, not regretting, but accepting that this was a bad way to cope. When I relized that was when I started working towords recovery, which isnt easy. But before him, no, I never regretted, never felt bad... I thought it was a perfect coping mechanism, the one that worked for me.
"So what, your saying im your brand of heroin?" "You are exactly my brand of heroin"
"So the Lion fell in love with the Lamb"
"What a stupid Lamb"
"What a sick masochistic Lion" "Why am I covered in feathers?" "I bit a pillow.Or two..." "So exactly why did you decide to ruin Esme's pillows?" "I dont know if I decided to anything last night, we're just lucky is was the pillows and not you"
i like sh-ing but as said above wish noone else saw them or reacted to them. ive had this conversation many a time wiht my manager.... i would quite happily cut/burn every inch of my body but cant cos of what people think and tbh its only really my family that i really care about not findign out.
there are some scars i hate and some i love and get upset when they go. i dont know its bizare, dont really know what my brain thinks.
why is sh so wrong..... i dont mean this is the way we should all do it. certainly not going pro-sh BUT people dont judge people that smoke or eat fatty foods so why should we be judged!
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this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!!
I love cutting myself, because to me it brings a sense of relief and there is no way I'd regret making myself feel better!
... For some reason though, I regret burning myself... but that's probably because it hurts afterwards... a lot more than cutting.
...I overdose a lot too, and to be honest I love doing it (it helps you sleep, and when you get medical help everyone is so nice, they understand you and they listen to you) and I won't ever stop overdosing.... if I stop cutting, I won't stop anything else.
...SH keeps me alive, so no I don't really regret it because I'd be dead otherwise.
"How can I be a gynecologist? I can barely look a woman in the eye!"
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I also go through stages, there are times when i don't see that it is a problem at all, it helps to get me through life, or i am so defeated i don't give a damn what happens to me, But i hate having to hide it, to lie to people who didn't know, and the one thing that really hurt was the look in (my now ex) fiance's eyes everytime he saw new cuts, it killed him that he couldn't help me and i don't think i will ever forget that look.. I sometimes hate needing it so much, the way it fills my every thought and the way i can't imagine life without it.. but equally it's comfortable, never fails me unlike nearly everything else in my life.. The scars and the cuts calm me, when i am feeling nervous, i stroke them through my clothes and know that i've got my own private strength.. it's like heaven and hell all rolled into one...
this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!! 
