Think I've done something really stupid. Handed in my notice at work today. Didn't talk it through with anyone just did it. Don't have another job, soon I wont have income at all. No savings. I have a car to pay off, rent for my flat, mobile phone bill etc. Why am I such an idiot!!! Told my mum and she freaked out. Told me how I shouldn't have done it. I am just one big disappointment to her :(
Found some rope in the store room at work today - it's so tempting.
Have cut stomach this week. Was told that there is more chance a cut on stomach will become infected. That was like a red rag to a bull. Feeling very vulnerable and alone :(
Yet if you should forget me for a while,
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
By Christina Rossetti
no one gives a **** about me on here or any where else. Family love me because they think that's what they're supposed to do not because of me as a person. I'm not ranting - I don't love myself so I can understand why. Waste of ****ing space.
Yet if you should forget me for a while,
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
By Christina Rossetti
Is there any way that you can take back that letter? Just say that things changed, they didn't go as you'd thought they would?
You are not a waste of space.
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
I don't know. Not sure what to do. Feel like I've run out of energy to care what happens to me. I'm not worth the hassel. I don't like where I work. Don't know what I want/am able to do job wise.
Yet if you should forget me for a while,
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
By Christina Rossetti
Hey,
Yes, why not go to work to take back the letter.
You sound quite low sweety, maybe go to the doctors to get a doctors note to sign you off ill for a while, until you get yourself feelin a little bit more better?
I'd back up going to see your GP, and taking back the letter. Your GP can give you a note to cover some sickness absence while you get some support to help you take the next step re work.
I'm sorry that things are so difficult for you. I have been in a similar situation where I handed in my notice but wasn't sure if i'd done the right thing so I spoke to my boss and took it back. What is it that you don't like about where you work? Would it help to talk to your boss and see what they can put in place to help you to continue working? Is there anyone able to support you to figure out what sort of work you feel able to do?
Please talk to your GP about your stomach and about how you are feeling. There might be things that they can put in place for you. I'm sure that there are people who care about you, we do. When you feel so bad about yourself it's hard to even consider that others might feel differently about you. Please stay safe and get yourself some support. I'm thinking about you. Get in touch if you need anything.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
*hugs* Honey do you not have someone you can talk to like a therapist? Yes pleasetalk to your GP! There is Jobseekers allowance if you're in the UK, which you can get while you are looking for work. Maybe look into it? People do care about you, I know it's hard to see that right now. I'm thinking about you too, hope you're ok, PM me if you like...
Hey i know im slow responding to this thread but ive actually read a few of your posts on here recently and each one has moved me and i really feel for you so i do care!!im sorry your in such pain right now.To me it actually doesnt sound like your well enough to work right now which is why as the others said i would suggest going to the GP to sign you off work for a bit so you can get back on your feet with things and maybe meanwhile just so you know you have a fallback in case you need it tell work you dont want your letter to apply for now?You CAN do this and pleople DO care.Here for you.Sorry your in this situation and things arent any better for you right now.
i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
maby talk to your boss and say you want you changed your mind- i did exactly the same thing just over a year ago. thanks to my pride i didnt take it back and as a result, ended up in lodsa deut and having to crash at a mates.
im sure they will let you carry on working there
*hugz* try and look after your cut on your stomac.
feel free to pm me any time
take care and i hope you sort things out at work
xxx
Have made appointment with GP for 29th Aug. Earliest I could get. Can't ask for letter back. Not a strong enough person. Will see what happens on monday when I go in to work. Really anxious. I am a complete idiot. Why do i make things harder for myself. It's like I want to have a **** life. Maybe it's because I feel I deserve it.
Yet if you should forget me for a while,
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
By Christina Rossetti
