Triggering (Suicide) - I Just Cant Live Like This Anymore

yourguardianangeliris · 03-08-2008, 01:56 AM

Im sorry, i just cant live like this anymore. I use to think that i was right and that everyone who had a problem with it could go and fuck themselves. But now ive changed, i dont want to be this person anymore. I just want to be normal. To like and love what is normal, to be able to fall in love like i should with who i should. I just cant live in a lie to myself and to know that if i try to fix it ill lose everyone, everything ive got. To be laughed at, humiliated. I just cant be gay anymore, i just cant do this anymore.

*Fading_existence* · 03-08-2008, 11:56 AM

Hun you are who you are and if you acted like someone you werent then you would probably be even more unhappy. People should like, love and appreciate you for who you are and if they dont then ask yourself are they really worth it? please hun be yourself people love you for that dont change because its what other people may want.

Cazki · 03-08-2008, 05:13 PM

Im really sorry your having a hard time. Do you have any support at all? Is there anyone close to you who you trust that you could talk to? Do you want to talk to us some more about why it is so hard for you being gay? The people that dont love you and like you for who you are are the ones with the problems not you.

Best wishes Ian

yourguardianangeliris · 04-08-2008, 09:16 PM

Its not that its hard. i mean yea it has its challenges but so does every relationship. its just that i dont want to be that person anymore. its not taht i cant be or that its hard to be its that i just dont want to. the problem is that so much of my life is based off of it that changing would mean making a new life for myself and i just dont know if i can do that.

cuppycake · 04-08-2008, 09:36 PM

Zack, you know that the people that care about you will always care about you know matter what choices you make. They may not always agree with those choices, but they will always care about you.
And the ones that turn their back on you, well they don't matter anyway. True friends stay with you no matter what. Through thick and thin.
No matter what you may put them through.