I havent been here for ages, I have really tried my hardest to not self harm, which i havent, but on friday i took an overdose of my anti depressants.. I callapsed and cant remember a thing after that, i spent the weekend in hospital had to see the crisis team, then they let me go..
Im petrified i came so close to actually ending my life, i didnt want to really but I just cant cope anymore.. My son died nearly 8 weeks ago now and we still havent had his funeral nor any results back from his post mortem, everything has just got on top of me
I HATE MYSELF
updated last post!! :)
Last edited by ~starburst~ : 15-08-2008 at 02:24 PM.
Last Self Harmed 12th May
Mummy to a very special little angel who lost his life 5th June 2008
I'm so, so sorry. It sounds like there is so much going on in your life right now. Please try to take care of yourself and stay as safe as possible, you don't need any more pain. Let someone know that you are feeling so desperate, you deserve support. I'm thinking about you. Get in touch any time.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
sorry,I haven't got many words for u at this rough time
*cuddles*
But when u feel like wanting to do something silly...y don't try ringing up ppl or hang out with ppl, at least they might be able to look after u for a bit until u feel a bit better xx
i am so sorry to haer of your loss i can't even begin to imagine how you are feeling but you are in my thoughts, in my opinion i am suprised they let you out of the hospital so soon condidering all you are going through right now! do you have a lot of support at home? friends, family, professionals? i just think this is too much to try and do on your own
*hugs*
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
Oh sweetheart I'm so sorry. It sounds like you're having a really tough time of it right now *hugs*. It must have been really frightening after the OD.
Please take care sweetie. I wish I had more for you.
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
Hi everyone
Update on me really
Im ok, still havent had my little boys funeral
But i have seen the crisis team and they have DECLARED ME AS NOT METALLY ILL!!!!
This is fantastic news regarding my other children coming home
Im so over the Moon
Also i havent done anything else silly ive been a good girl
Just want to thankyou all for the support you have shown me here, I honestly dont think i will be bck this time
yay
Good luck to everyone else in there recovery though okies xx take care you can beat this!
Last Self Harmed 12th May
Mummy to a very special little angel who lost his life 5th June 2008
Please take care of yourself.