- unable to sleep despite working full time job and trying to be normal;
- makes me want to kill myself or shred myself to bits;
- makes me want to hide from the world and **** the rest of them.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
sometimes, if people who don't understand get even a whiff of your mental health problems, they start treating you as though you're a complete imbecile when in fact you're probably twice as bright and capable as they are. *shakes fist at them*.
Depression is waking up, then wondering why the hell you bothered...
The Insomnia Diet: you haven't been out to buy groceries for weeks, are only awake from 9 pm to 6 am, and NOTHING is open. Besides, eating would take effort...
Who can attest that when they're at their best
Oh their worst is still crouching close behind
It's coming to peace with the darkness in me
That allows the true light to shine inside "Ups and Downs" ~ Kendall Payne
The problem with having a mental illness? No matter how smart a person you are, the problem is in your mind, and you can't use your mind to solve it. You can try, but most fail. The movie "A Beautiful Mind" is inspiring in that regard.
~Tobias
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"As the sun sets on one life, it rises on another."
Eh, for me, it's the feeling of hopelessness. When you feel that nothing's going right, and you wonder why the hell you bothered crawling out of bed; when you feel that you're damaging people more than you're helping them, and that you'd do everyone a favour if you just...ceased to exist
Last edited by Damnation. : 26-07-2008 at 04:04 AM.
Reason: i tipe wel =D
Public attitudes.
I have PTSD. I don't have two heads. [well, ok, I do have an alter-ego, but that's not what I meant!!!]
If they respected my space, treated me like a human being, I wouldn't be provoked into flashbacks in the first place.
Which brings me to point 2. Dissociative Flashbacks. They're the worst thing for me. It's like being trapped in hell, in a cage, and everyone laughing in at you and throwing things.
everything because im never going to be the person i was before.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
I've got to repeat what alyssa.star says, the meds turning me into a zombie has to be the worst, but If I wasn't a zombie I would be pychotic
So you can't win really
also the friends who don't know what to say when they find out you've been sectioned under the mental health act, so they don't say anything, they just dump you, really nice feeling that
also the constant pychiatric evaluations by various proffessionals
trying to find out what the hell is wrong with you
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
DID
Waking up and not knowing where you are.
Switching to a 3 year old in public or in the city (not good).
Dr's in emergency departments being abusive.
Psychiatrists telling a 4 year old alter who has been severely abused to 'stop crying' and 'grow up!'
It being so hard to get close to people, even those you love and trust
Connecting with people
Getting beaten up for having scars on your arms
Confusion
Exhaustion
Last edited by bleeding black : 28-07-2008 at 09:22 AM.
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When people make snap judgements on diagnosis before even seeing you or hearing your history - e.g. the Occ. Health nurse who asked me if I was Bipolar almost as soon as I'd walked in the door.
For me it would be being given an illusion of support/treatment when things are bad which are then shown as the illusions they are when requesting it. Oh and the fact that I am 'strong' so must be able to cure myself *really* annoys me too.
