Triggering (SI/Suicide) - Apparently i'm not ill enough.

[Wonderland.]

I just want some support.
I dont think thats to much to ask.
But she doubts i'll get accepted.
She says i'm not ill enough.
How can i not be ill enough?
I dont get it.
I acted on suicidal thoughts.
Then ran off when it didnt work to try it again.
Had the police out searching for me.
When i got found i got taken to A&E in an ambulance to sort out my wounds.
Everyone said that that was the lowest they had ever seen me.
Yet she still says i'm not ill enough.
I wish she would take me seriously.
How does she think i'm gonna cope without any support till the end of august.
I need support now.
And then what if they dont accept me - i get no support at all

I wish i'd never told anyone about my problems ever, i'm back to sqaure one again but with no help this time and barley any friends left because of my stupid mental health and my stupid parents and my stupid therapist.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[small light]

Oh hunny, I'm so sorry it's taking such a long time for you to be helped! *cuddles close* Keep holding on darling and pushing and pushing. Never give up asking for support. You deserve it

xxfreddiexx

[Wonderland.]

Its my therapist at camhs who says i'm not ill nough.
I onyly get one sesh a month with her which is way not enough, not that she even helps.
I spoke to my doc about changing her and he wrote a letter to her and shes gonna to refer me to the 16 - 19 team at camhs cos i'm nearly 16 but she says i wont get accepted.
So i have like no support and i feel crud.

[Shenanigans]

That's terrible of her to say, I'm sorry she said that.

But remember it isn't her decision to make, it's the 16-19 team. SHE might think that, but it doesn't mean those you're being reffered to will agree.

Take care hun
Xxxx

[Wonderland.]

Thanks for all your replies.
Shes writing the referal though and speaking to them aswell...i dont know what i'm gonna do if i dont get accepted...i'll just fall to bits with no support i already am at the moment.

[Spoons]

all you can do is emphasise to them how much you really need the help, be completely honest. Sometimes its hard to say stuff, but if they dont see how you are struggling completely then they might think that you can cope.

But also, you might be able to cope.
I went from 4 sessions a week to nothing as i left uni and i really didnt think i could do it. Its not been easy but i am coping, just.

[Wonderland.]

Just got a letter through the post today from camhs saying there going to assess me at my next appointment which is at the end of august so i got accepted yayyyyyyyyyyyyy.

ha in yer face therapist
i am ill enough
x

[snowflake]

*hugs* i'm glad you got accepted and that you will be able to get the support you need
xxx

[Porcelain Child]

*squishes Amy*

I hope things work out for you hun...

[Wonderland.]

Heyy guys...
Just another update...
I went to see the psych with my therapist...to get assesed by him...and he was proper nice and i felt like i could tell him the scary stuff i couldnt tell my therapist like suicide and stuff cos he just came right out and asked me...i was quite proud of myself for telling the truth and he said that him and his team would love to help me if thats what i want...and i said yeahhh.
So i'm seeing him again in two weeks...which is much more regular than i was seeing my therapist...i felt really comfortable with him...i'm really pleased with him...he treats me like an adult aswell which is something my therapist didnt...
I'm feeling more confident about recovery now...

Amy x

[Stellata]

I'm really pleased to hear that. :)