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Triggering (SI/ED) - I need help i am so confused wht to do
I have ed and cut bad and well have been in inpateint care. A girl i used to be chose to like very close is hving prombels with eating. I pushed her away when i cme bk to school so we hvnt talked in a long time bt i have knw for a while she has prombels with eating. She has finaly open up to me and told me all about the thoughs and the little tht she eats and all tht stuff and i nw dnt knw wht to do. I feel so helpless cos she doesnt really think she has a prombel and i knw how bad it can all get and i really dnt knw wht to do. She cuts bad too and well she will tlk to no one about it and it makes me so depressed. I promise nt to tell anyone bt if she went to a doctor she wuld be diagnosed with a ed i think and well i dnt knw if i am doing the right thing by nt telling anyone... arahh bt if i do she will never open up to anyone. I fear it is alot worse thn she is telling me knw and wht is really sad is that the things she is saying is so familar frm wht i have told her before bt she used to shout me down telling me nt eating wasnt normal and i needed to c it and get better and cutting was bad bt knw... now she is sying nt eating meals is normal and there is no prombel with skipping meals and feeling guilts and all those ed thoughs. arrah and part of me hate her for eating less food and that i am jelous of how thin she is and all tht jeoluse ed stuff. arrah i dnt knw wht to do and it is killing me inside and my suidalal thoughs keep coming bk and really strong. I cnt cope with the feeliing of helpless and watching someone who was so strong with me whn i was in hosptial and all the way through, falling part saying stuff god saying stuff tht she shouted me down for so many times. I jst cant cope i dnt knw wht else to do apart from take enough pills to stop it altogther. wht do i do? someone help please
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